Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!! - Page 162

Katters · 11-12-2009, 02:18 AM

I still want to cut.
I still think about it, fantasise and obsess about it every day.
I still dream about doing it.

And i'm not allowed.

I don't want to end up resenting you for making me stop.
Which is why i never ever promised anyone but you.

This is so hard.

lozza · 11-12-2009, 07:21 AM

if I were you I wouldnt believe a word I said anymore, and I wouldnt ever go behind my back either...

I mean...do you want to keep me safe and kill me at the same time??

...I'll leave the descison up to you

Frenemies · 11-12-2009, 04:01 PM

I let people walk all over me and I don't know why.

offlineforever · 11-12-2009, 04:30 PM

I know i need help, and fast, but i'm scared of just how fucked up I am...

it's more than even I am aware of.

I don't know what to start fixing first, there is too much.

Elphaba · 12-12-2009, 12:58 AM

I'm ugly & I HATE myself

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 12-12-2009, 11:06 AM

All my efforts to clean me, leave me putrid; filthy and how can you look at me when I can't stand myself!

Mademoiselle Lola. · 12-12-2009, 02:37 PM

i've never binged so much...

offlineforever · 12-12-2009, 02:50 PM

I haven't eaten properly for days...

Olive branch · 12-12-2009, 04:30 PM

I'm not happy with this ED, I'm not happy with the ODs, I'm not happy with the cutting. I'm not FUCKING happy with you. But add those things up and I survive.

Understand me?

Olive branch · 12-12-2009, 04:38 PM

My pysch wants to weigh me again. I'm losing weight so he doesn't think I'm a fake and a failure.

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 12-12-2009, 07:04 PM

I understand now and i don't want to live this way.
I'm not going to live this way.

offlineforever · 12-12-2009, 09:18 PM

I've been to hell and back so many times, too many times.

I'm in hell now and i don't think i have the strength to get back

I.Heart.And · 12-12-2009, 10:11 PM

I day dream about seducing you quite a bit.

hope.is.overrated · 13-12-2009, 04:55 AM

1 - I can't tell what I think to people
2 - I am not good with expressing emotions, good or bad
3 - When I am angry or sad I never discount them on people, always on me
4 - If I could, I would stay in my bedroom in the dark all day and come out only at night
5 - I feel guilty when I eat too much

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7 - I don't get treatment 'cause I am afraid to be normal like everybody else
8 - Being different and unusual it's the only way I know how to be, for better or worse, it's the only thing I can deal with

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10- I don't like mental hospitals and the thought of being in one scares the hell out of me, but I can't stop dreaming about it...

PS: If I wrote something that RYL doesn't allow, I am sorry, I am new in here and I am still reading the rules

offlineforever · 13-12-2009, 02:14 PM

sometimes i think all the negative things said on this thread are aimed at me

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1450

patchwork_doll · 13-12-2009, 02:31 PM

im closer than ive ever been

[Awakening] · 13-12-2009, 11:03 PM

I don't want to let it go, I want to self destruct.

offlineforever · 14-12-2009, 02:18 AM

I think the only way i will get over this, is if i totally let go.

But that will drive me insane

bonneville1995 · 14-12-2009, 05:31 AM

i regret ever telling them about my si cuz i feel like sh*t when i cant find the words to explain when they ask why.
i wish i could just disappear..
sometimes i dont want to stop cuz it feels like if i do then i wont be able to survive

lozza · 15-12-2009, 09:06 AM

I wish I could tell you how to break my walls down..
I wish I wasnt still like this

...but she was right, she was right all along... I need this now... this is the only thing I have left that I'm good at...