youve helped me so much these last few days (and years) but im worried about you because i dont want to drag you down and make you ill again and i worry that by leaning on you i will make you upset or unwell again and you deserve more then that! can you talk to me if things get too much for you? i want to try and help you like you help me!
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i think its wonderful you finaly want to get help! i will help you as much as i can you can beat bulimia i know it you are a strong georugous wonderful girl and a brilliant friend!
fuck, I can't do this, it's getting worse.
I can't stay here anymore.
I can't be alive anymore.
I can't..I just can't..shit.
I wish I had a way out of here.
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
I don't understand it..why would you do that to me?
~where did you go...I thought we were good together...do you need time or?
~I need you here bubby I can't do this at all...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
ash B- yeah leave the facebook convo and don't even say bye. I diserve it anyway.
random boy on bus- i heard you. I just ignore those who make fun of me. Please find a new hobby than making me want to off myself
letterman- i picked the hardest thing to paint........and now you said i cant switch. epic freaking fail
your tears dont fall they crash around me- bullet for my valentine.
mom- stop saying stuff about my novel. It's the first draft and its suppose to be shit. Shut the fuck up. Stop being a bitch. Quit calling it the "Great american novel". It isnt done. It isnt edited. There's nothing evan that great in it. Shut up and stop acting like your mother.......god.
your tears dont fall they crash around me- bullet for my valentine.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
Life is Beautiful
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
I know its bad - but half the reason Im so happy today is because the top half of my stomach now dips in.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
I'm 25 weeks pregnant.
Free from self harm for about 8 months.
I hate these thoughts in my head, that I should go into my mom's lockbox and take her pills, and end it all.
And it KILLS me everyday that I could think so selfishly, that I would want to hurt not myself, but my baby. :'(
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
~what is wrong with you? why do you get bitchy the second I say something that you could get caught if either of your g/f's found out, so fine I deleted and blocked you, and you better stay the FUCK away from me, I don't need you shit, I can't even believe you played with me like that, you don't love me you never did so why do you insist on trying to kill every fiber of me that is happy without you...don't I deserve that much after you put me through hell? I've cried and cut and STARVED for you, god dammit I'm like this now BECAUSE of you! do you LIKE it??!!!
~what was with you, out of nowhere...thanks? and we're not friends just because we agree that she sucks hard nuts doesn't mean I like you, I still hate you for being a hypocrite and doing the "please everyone thing" and you're not gay, so stop trying to piss off your nazi mother and knock it off child, you're only 15 you don't know what you are yet.
~thanks bro' I kinda need all the help I can get right now..I feel like I'm dying and I can't help myself
~I'm scared to ask you what we are, I really really like you but I'm scared
~I'm not upset, I was just using you cause you're there as a cuddle buddy, we never actually dated seeing as I never asked you out, I just asked if you were single for future reference that didn't qualify as asking you out, and besides I have a g/f. why would I be mad that it's "not my place to date you" ok so it's not, so what? you're a little young for me and I don't date freshmen anymore.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
