Okay, so I don't usually post asking for help but yeah, I need some advice.
About a year ago, I was diagnosed with Anorexia, stopped seeing my psych and refused treatment, I then started eating a lot, became dependent on laxatives and such. I've gained a considerable amount of weight over the past year and I'm finding it really really hard to deal with, I'm bigger than I've ever been.
I try to eat healthily and such but, I cannot stop eating.
I used to not eat to make myself feel better, now I eat to make myself feel better, then I feel guilty and restrict all day and binge at night, it's a never ending cycle. I'm more unhappy now than I've ever been and I don't know how to stop.
I was just wondering what sort of things anyone here does to eat more healthily and less if they have an ED like this. I don't want to slip back into Anorexia, I just want to be a healthy weight and such.
It's difficult for me to eat regular meals because I can't eat in front of people at school and get really bad stomach aches when I eat in the morning. Taking laxatives has also made things worse, I haven't taken them in three weeks. I don't know, everything just seems to be against me and it's just making me feel worse all the time.
Thanks in advance for any advice
Hope you're all well. <3
If we fall,
we don't need self recrimination or blame or anger -
The same thing happened to me, and I've spent about 3 years trying to lose some of the 'excess' weight I gainedthrough binging.....I'm only just starting to realise that the only way to get better is to stop trying to lose the weight too quickly, and to establish regular eating patterns. For me, this means ALWAYS eating breakfast, lunch, dinner, and maybe an afternoon snack, as I just start going crazy if I go for too long without eating. I'm trying to eat healthily, in the hope that I can slowly lose some weight, but at the same time, I'm not restricting. Perhaps you could see a doctor/dietician to work out an eating schedule...you should really try to address your issues about eating in front of people/ getting stomach aches in the morning, as I think you have more chance of establishing a healthy relationship with food if you can eat in the morning and at school. I also found that by starting to eat more normally in front of people again, I feel less uncomfortable about eating, which in turn makes me less pre-occupied with food and eating in general.....x
The same thing happened to me, and I've spent about 3 years trying to lose some of the 'excess' weight I gainedthrough binging.....I'm only just starting to realise that the only way to get better is to stop trying to lose the weight too quickly, and to establish regular eating patterns. For me, this means ALWAYS eating breakfast, lunch, dinner, and maybe an afternoon snack, as I just start going crazy if I go for too long without eating. I'm trying to eat healthily, in the hope that I can slowly lose some weight, but at the same time, I'm not restricting. Perhaps you could see a doctor/dietician to work out an eating schedule...you should really try to address your issues about eating in front of people/ getting stomach aches in the morning, as I think you have more chance of establishing a healthy relationship with food if you can eat in the morning and at school. I also found that by starting to eat more normally in front of people again, I feel less uncomfortable about eating, which in turn makes me less pre-occupied with food and eating in general.....x
I guess it is more important than I realised that I learn to eat in front of people. It's things like that which hold me back yet, I always think that it's insignificant. But, it's not and changing something like that will probably really help. Thank you, appreciate your help. x
If we fall,
we don't need self recrimination or blame or anger -
*cuddles*
I love you Nikiiiiiiiii. I don't really know what to say but I think you need to overcome eating in front of people in order to make finding a balance a bit easier and stop the anxiety.
Come see me again, I'll feed you healthily :P xxx
it's good to know I'm not alone, thank you.
it is really hard and I know it's going to be difficult, I just hope I learn how to deal with it because, it's getting harder all the time.
Thank you Clairey, I want to come and see you soon, I'll figure out how to get there and just let me know when you're not working :)
<3
If we fall,
we don't need self recrimination or blame or anger -
