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Not coping, suggestions welcome
Im so stressed out and struggling to cope with life in general atm i dont know what to do.
I've just come back to uni after summer and I've kinda realised all these things about myself that maybe I haven't quite dealt with properly. I've been going out catching up with my friends etc, but the way im feeling at the moment I feel lyk theyr not really my friends cos they dont understand why i do the things i do and just refuse to try and understand.
Silly things like I want to have another shower and do my makeup etc before I go out for a night out because Im so insecure about how i look, but they get anoyd because sometimes they want to go straight out from the pub to a club, and if im in jeans and a top I wouldnt feel comfortable in a club and would just generaly have a horrible night other than if i went home and had time to pamper myself a bit and felt comfortable that i lookd nice for a club. im not confident enough in myself to just go in jeans and a tshirt and feel nice about myself.
but the main problems atm is that there was a guy who really liked me but everyone thinks hes a wanker but i dont actualy know him properly so i didnt want to just judge and take their opinion cos thats not very nice if you dont actualy no the person. but hes on anti depressants and has problems of his own but not many people know this. but he asked me how i felt about him and i told him honestly, that id lyk to be friends but i didnt see him that way. but he said he couldnt because he wanted more and now hes not speaking to me. which makes me feel really **** cos i really wanted to help him and itd have been nice to have ad a friend who had similar experiences to myself. but no1 understood y it upset me that id upset him, or why id waste my time speaking to him.
the other main problem is that i have a really lovely bf, one of a kind, but hes best friends with his ex, who he openly finds attractive, and they spend time alone together and txt and leave each other loads of "x"s at the end of each text. even though he knows it upsets me, he doesnt think theres anything wrong with it. She left him a facebook comment and startd saying i was attacking her, when i wasnt i just shared my honest opinion on what shed written but he went ape. but then appologised to tom that it was out of order cos she was upset over an ex. and ofcourse he just forgave her without being that anoyd with her which anoyd me because iv not even met the girl and she was having a rite go at me.
I cant cope with them being friends and i dont know what to do. i dont want to make him choose cos i know thats not fair. but what do i do? I avnt SHd in about a year now and this is the first time in a long time iv felt so down that I want to do it
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