iam scared *mentions s/h and suicide*

[purplepenguin65]

:((( iam so bad :( i cut tonight ALOT. i couldnt do it. i needed to breath. i had my razor on my wrist and i almost so so close almost tried to kill myself but my cell whent off and scared me. so i didnt. :/
but i also have a consern and a question
first iam scared to be alone iam scared ill get triggered and kill myself so i was wondering can my counsler put me in the hospital if i explain to him i need to feel safe from myself. guys most people wont belive me but please please understand theres going to be a day where i have the razor to my wrist and there will be no distractions and ill die..i dont want that right now but if i have to choose being scared to move over never worrying again i will choose death...it the way out....
p.s i would love to talk to my parents but tey dont lisen to them its a phase and a cry for attention...
thanks guys
and sorry i should have tried harder not to cut....

[loveishere]

hello dear. Firstly I think it's great that you know that you really do not want to kill yourself, even though you are tempted to. Its really good that your cell went off, it would have been horrible if you had gone through with it.
If you are scared to be alone then do not be alone. Seriously. Find a friend to stay with or hang with your parents. If you feel you can't do that there are suicide hotlines you can call who will talk to you if you are having a hard time.
At any time you feel you are in danger, you can call emergency services and tell them that you are not safe. they will take care of you.
You can tell your counselor that you feel you need to be hospitalized, if he is any good, he will figure out a way to help you.
Whatever it takes, find a way to make sure you are safe and taken care of, the world does not need to lose you!
You are not bad. you have nothing to be sorry for. you are doing a good thing by asking for help.
Do you feel you are in immediate danger right now? if so please get help, call emergency services if you are.
Seriously if you ever need anything please please PM me I will always listen and help in any way I can.

[88shelz]

you need to tell your parents that its not a phase and get them to help you
tell them your fears and let them know that this is serious.

can you get rid of the tools you use so that tempatation isnt so close? xx

[tamobhuuta]

it would be a good idea to tell your counsellor how unsafe you are at the moment. whether or not they'll think hospital a good idea i don't know, but they should be able to get you some more support while you're feeling so bad.