Triggering (SI) - confussed **mentions suicide***

[Just another statistic]

okay, so i was feeling depressed and suicidal for reasons that i wont go into now, i cut twice on friday evening and didnt feel any better infact it made how i felt worse and wanted to kill myself.
but i thought no i need help, took me bout 2hours to buck up the courage (after alot of crying and mixed emotions) the staff where i live were busy so i rang up NHS direct and told them how i was feeling and they told me to go up to A+E. 30mins later i had arrived there.
only had to wait 15mins!! coz they knew after 30mins i would freak out and go. the doctor chatted with me and dressied my wounds, he wanted to keep me in.
then the crisis team came and saw me and wanted me to go home!!! i got angry and kicked off and got given a seditive, the doctor couldnt do anything to keep me there. the crisis team said that i had done wrong coming up to A+E because it wasnt the right place.
the crisis team are very good people and do right by you, i am on no level dismissing the great work that they do with people. but no im confussed bout what to do when i get desparate i dont feel confitable going up there now, would there be anywhere i could go??
any suggestion would be most helpful
thanks
hope everyone is well. xxxx

[88shelz]

did they say why you were wrong to go there?
to me it seems you have done everything rightand im proud of you for doing that

[ThinkingofRecovery]

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Originally Posted by 88shelz

did they say why you were wrong to go there?
to me it seems you have done everything rightand im proud of you for doing that

I agree with this.

[Country Girl]

I don't know what to tell you but just wanted to give you big gigantic hugs! and say that I don't think what they told you was fair....*HUGS*

[Envi90]

I agree with everyone here! It doesn't seem right that they should tell you to leave! To me, it seems like you did the right thing goin up there, which I'm very glad you did! I wish you lots of luck finding somewhere else and give you toooons of hugs!!!

[tamobhuuta]

just wanted to... fifth what's already been said. haev you been able to speak to anyone since this, other professionals to get their understanding of it. well done, you did everything right.