*Hugs Alexx* Nice to see you again hun. What's up *hands you some tissues*
*Hugs Emma* It's unbelievable that they would leave you with no support when you're struggling. The services are really ****. Is there no way you could ask for a bit of support? Why isn't your CPN seeing you until late autumn?
*Hugs Dayna* Yeah, I get that. Usually when I'm drinking on my own I listen to depressing music even though originally I was feeling pretty good. Hope you managed to stay safe sweetie, and got some sleep.
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I have a bad cough. Not as bad as ones I've had before, but my throat really hurts. I completely blame myself for chain smoking, I know I shouldn't but I just can't help it.
I also feel really gross as I haven't had a bath for quite a few days. If I can find the energy I'll have one this morning...
I got my cast off today and got given a new sling because the doctor saw the holes in the last one. Tomorrow I have orthopaedic clinic for my shoulder. And Friday I have to go to physio for my hand. I'm back to touch typing again although a little slower as my hand is getting used to not being in the cast.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Heyyyy guys.
It's just been so incrediblly **** right now.
I lost my job...and my boyfriend and had a massive row with my family and nearly got kicked out and...AND....got put on anti-depressants again....with in the space of 2 weeks. Boyfriend and job on the same day :|
It annoys me how you think you find someone really nice and he's like "aww...this'll last...you mean the world to me" and he lets you dream all the things that depression/paranoia says you'll never have....and then....one day you get home and he's like "im breaking up with you" with a completely lame reason...and then a week later he's with someone else.
I just dont understand and its making me feel like I'm so worthless. I lie awake at night tossing and turning and crying myself to sleep. I feel like I've got the weight of the world on my shoulders...and right now...I feel fine....but I know its because Im on anti-depressants and inside I'm NOT fine. Stupid stupid life.
I've not eaten properly for days. I've not slept properly for days. Why are people so cruel?
*Hugs Alexx*
I've gone through a similar thing. I was with someone for almost three years, and then out of the blue he told me he wanted to go on a break because I'd put on weight and needed to sort my head out. He promised we wouldn't see other people and that it wouldn't only last the summer. It's been a year and he's got a girlfriend.
People can be so cruel, and they can really **** with your head and your heart. But the important thing is to remind yourself that they aren't good enough for you. If he's got no problem treating you that way, you're so so much better off without him. Honestly.
xxx
*hugs Alexx* If he can be like that then i agree with zowie, he's not worth it. Which doesnt help much at the moment i know but keep trying to say it to yourself.
really struggling but home 2morrow but they r expecting this holiday to have helped. argh then my ot leaves me and im bk to square one. brought more pillls out here i know i shudnt of but oh well. dont even know what is happening with my cmht when i get bk cus she had swine flu before i came away and she plans to dischrage me on weds so i dont know wats happening. gd thing is got a gd tan lol but my mood is pretty shitty still and im just snapping at the family and making life difficult for them i hate being like this. sobs cnt do this
hmmmmm. I dunno what to do with myself.
*stupid dance*
This isnt even real happiness. This is happiness that is small and white and sugar coated...washed down with water or wine.
grrr. *shakes fist*
I wish I could have a cuddle.
I really need to stop looking at his profile...everytime I see "in a relationship with" i feel alittle bit more dead inside.
He told her he loved her after two days....he wrote on his wall that she's "a keeper". that should be me!!
I dont want to be alone.
Everything is falling apart.
I woke with my wrist in pain this morning and have done my exercises as recommended by the physio. I just hope that the pain stops. I go to see the orthopaedic surgeon in a couple of hours and am hoping that goes well.
Wish me luck!!
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
