Im scared if I lose the weight that I cant be the "funny fat girl" anymore - and people will see the real me.
Im scared to ask for permission to go out tomorrow.
Sarah: Give me the child.
Jareth: Sarah beware. I have been generous up till now. I can be cruel.
Sarah: Generous? What have you done that's generous?
Jareth: Everything! Everything you have wanted I have done. You asked the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside down, and I have done it all for you! I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?
Omgod, I missed you so much.
You have no idea how important you are to me.
.|And even though I'm walking away, I cannot help but stare back with longing in my chest and tears in my eyes and angry pale crescents on my palms|. ________
Im so scared you'll reject me.
After all, who really wants the suicidal, mentally unstable, girl with cuts and scars up her legs?
Thats why, not because I dont like you, geez, I fucking love you, but because Im scared. I dont want to feel this way.
.|And even though I'm walking away, I cannot help but stare back with longing in my chest and tears in my eyes and angry pale crescents on my palms|. ________
don't you dare talk about my self harm like thator at all for that matter, ever again you ignorant fuck. i love you to bits but you clearly dont understand it, or me, at all.
i know you apologised, and i forgive you, i do
but it really hurt that you think that of me.
Why wont speak to me, why I am so sorry I hate you what you did to me,
it makes me cries.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
I've made a drastic decision, in my opinion, but I have no idea how to bring it up. I'm so scared of what will happen. You make it so hard.. the both of you.
"You are imperfect and you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging." -Brene Brown
I know you want me to stop protecting you and be honest. But how can I release so much pain upon you? I've already inflicted far too much.
"I asked the sun to tell me about the big bang. The sun said 'It hurts to become.'" -- Andrea Gibson, I Sing The Body Electric Especially When My Power Is Out
I love you truly.
