Lyrics to how you're feeling right now.

[Dreamer And Believer]

I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb
I want to shut out all the lights in this room
I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that i think of you

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil
Feel like i watch from 6 feet under the soil
Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears
But i recount the countless tears that i lost for you

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise Starting now I'll never know your name
Starting now I'll never feel the same
Starting now I wish you never came into my world.

I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin
I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains
Spinning away every piece that remains of you.

[risenfromperdition]

This long of a struggle
Finally opened up my eyes
Revolution's not easy
With a civil war on the inside.
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I count on the make up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep
Cause i can not keep their attention
I thought i could be strong,
But it's killing me...
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life.
Sometimes i wish i was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
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Curled up she's on the floor
Relief left her,
She had hoped for something more from it
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I know you're hurting
Feel's like you're learning
'Bout life the hard way
And it ain't working
seems like forever
That you've been falling
It's time to move on
Your life is calling, yeah

This was never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

Cause i know how hard it can get,
But you've gotta lift
You've gotta lift
And sometimes that's how it is
But i know you're stronger
Stronger than this
...
You've got to lift yourself up above all the hurt
Don't give in
Wipe your eyes and remember you're better than this

[TinkerDebs]

on top of the roof
the air is so cold and so calm

[chrisjbee]

You see these cuts and bruises
Isn't this all so amusing
I feel the emptiness of just a another day in hell
My life is so confusing
Do this to myself I'm losing
Guess I'm only proving
What everyone can see but me

These cuts and bruises are all self inflicted
These cuts and bruises are all self inflicted
These cuts and bruises are all self inflicted
These cuts and bruises are all self inflicted

[chrisjbee]

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it onI hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well...

[DestroyMe]

Have you see a cripple dance?
Pay your money, baby
Now's your chance
Eyes like cyanide

I am so dumb
Just beam me up
I've had it all forever
I've had enough

Remember, you promised me
I'm dying, I'm dying, please
I want to, I need to be
Under your skin


Our love is quicksand
So easy to drown
They steal the gravity, yeah
From moving ground

Remember, you promised me
I'm dying, I'm dying, please
I want to, I need to be
Under your skin

And now I understand
You leave with everything
You leave with everything I am
Withering

And now I know that love is dead
You've come to bury me
There's nothing left here to pretend
Anything

Remember, you promised me
I'm dying, I'm dying, please
I want to, I need to be
Under your skin

I'm dying, I'm dying, please
I'm dying, I'm dying, please
I'm dying, I'm dying, please
Under your skin
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It's not what I took from you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this
Like this!

The time has come to change this
To stretch the thought a mile
We've lost that kind of spirit
We want it back today
The time is right to change this
To make the life we know
They took what we were given
We'll get it back again

Somewhere, someone's gun
someone's gun is laughing
It's not what I gave to you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this
It's not what I took from you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this

You try your best to mock me
You're always in my way
You've lost what you've been given
You'll get it back today
The time is right to change this
To make the life we know
They took what we were given
We want it back again

Somewhere, someone's gun
someone's gun is laughing
It's not what I gave to you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this
It's not what I took from you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this

Somewhere... You're floating high you're not living we are
Somewhere, someone's gun, someone's gun is laughing,laughing

It's not what I gave to you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this (2x)

It's not what I took from you
It's not what I stole
We are born like this
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At night I hear it creeping
At night I feel it move
I'll never sleep here anymore

I wish you never told me
I wish I never knew
I wake up screaming

It's all because of you
So real these voices in my head
When it comes back you wont be
Scared and Lonely
You wont be scared you wont be
You wont be scared and lonely
You wont be scared you wont be lonely

I know there's something out there
I think I hear it move
I've never felt like this before

I wish You never told me
I wish I never knew
I wake up screaming

It's all because of you
So real these voices in my head

When it comes back you wont be
Scared and Lonely
You wont be scared you wont be
You wont be scared and lonely
You wont be scared you wont be lonely

it's all because of you
i wish you'd never told me
i wake up screaming out
so real these voices in my head
so real these voices in my head
i wake up screaming out
i wish you never told me
i wish i never knew

Scared and Lonely
You wont be scared you wont be
You wont be scared and lonely
You wont be scared you wont be lonely
Scared and Lonely
You wont be scared you wont be
You wont be scared and lonely
You wont be scared you wont be lonely

[Rhapsody]

But one thing they don't tell you about the blues when you got em
You keep on falling cause there ain't no bottom
There ain't no end.

[Psiren]

Save me, I'm lost...

[TinkerDebs]

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

there's something insdie me
that pulls beneath the surface
consuming, confusing
this lack of self control i fear
is never ending, controlling

i can't seem to find myself again
my walls are closing in
without a sense of confidence
i'm convinced theres
just too much pressure
i've felt this way before so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

discomfort, endlessly has pulled
itself upon me distracting, reacting
against my will i stand beside my own reflection
it's hauting how i can't seem

i can't seem to find myself again
my walls are closing in
without a sense of confidence
i'm convinced theres
just too much pressure
i've felt this way before so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me
that pulls beneath the surface
consuming
confusing what is real
this lack of self control i fear
is never ending, controlling
confusing what is real

[lovelybones]

And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
--
And you might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not
--
Then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
--
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
--
I dreamt of a fever
One that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart
With heat to melt these frozen tears
Burned with reasons as to carry on
Into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow
But I swear that I would follow anything, just get me out of here
--
It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this ****ing wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arrive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies, just love. Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know I will be pure
Like snow, like gold
--
I won't make promises, you taught me that
I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
--
Because I'm all wrong and I don't see a chance to fix this head
So just give up, write me off, pretend I don't exist

There's something in an empty bed that makes it hard to close your eyes
It can eat at you until they both turn black and blue
And all you want is a reason you should live
Or a way for you to die, a way for you to die
--
Spend my days looking back, and I wonder if you're looking up
From underneath someone who is able to be everything that I'm not
--
Scars are tearing open along my palms and knees
I guess that's what I should get for crawling back at your feet
And now I'm feeling so down, that there's no God above
No mercy for a soul that's just way too ****ed up
--
I've lost track of who I was some time ago
I thought I figured out which way to go
Now I hate to say that the only thing that keeping me alive is you
The only thing that's keeping me alive
but I can't say your name, I think I'll be okay

[Rodolphus]

You're angry, I know this,
The world couldn't care less,
You're lonely, I feel this,
And you wish you were the best,
No teachers, or guidance,
And you always walk alone,
You're crying, at night when,
Nobody else is home.

Come over here and let me hold your hand,
And hug you darling,
I promise you that it won't always feel this bad,
There are so many things I want to say to you,
You're the girl I used to be,
The little heart broken, 13 year old me.

You're laughing, but you're hiding,
God, I know this trick too well,
You forget, that I've been you,
I'm now I'm just the shell,
I promise, I love you,
Everything will work out fine,
Don't try to grow up yet,
Just give in sometimes.

The pain you feel is real,
You're not asleep,
And it's a nightmare.
But you can wake up any time.
Don't lose your passion,
Or the fighter that's inside you,
You're the girl I used to be,
The pissed off, complicated 13 year old me.

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

you can play all day and tell your friends that everythings alright
but the truth is that your heart collapsed
two years ago tonight

[Red Lotus.]

Punk rock has the power to change the world,
It lies in every single punk rock boy and girl,
So don’t let anyone tell you you’re not worth the earth,
These streets are your streets, this turf is your turf,
Don’t let anyone tell you that you’ve got to give in,
Cos you can make a difference, you can change everything,
Just let your dreams be your pilot, your imagination your fuel,
Tear up the book and write your own damn rules,
Use all that heart, hope and soul that you’ve got,
And the love and the rage that you feel in your gut,
And realise that the other world that you’re always looking for,
Lies right here in front of us, just outside this door,
And it’s up to you to go out there and paint the canvas,
After all, you were put on the earth to do this,
So shine your light so bright that all can see,
Take pride in being whoever the f*** you want to be,
Throw your fist in the air in solidarity,
And shout “Viva la punk, just one life, anarchy”

[DestroyMe]

One last kiss before they cart me away and
Just take one last look before my body decays
This is my last night on earth
My ****ing hell

All my life all I've wanted to say
This is love love love while the symphony plays
Here in death I would cut my breath just to stay

I'll never love again
Take the vision away

Beautiful beautiful
I'm a Loser alive
On a suicide mission to die
Beautiful beautiful
I'm a loser inside
Suicide
You're beautiful yeah
I'm a suicide

F*ck f*ck f*ck I wanna f*ck till we bleed and
There's a time crunch baby I don't want to believe
This is my last night on earth
My ****ing hellsetup_params();
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Dear mother I am lost and the damage has been done.
I’m in love with my old century fix and this needle can’t be wrong,
but I wonder?
Where do we go from here because we’re never coming home?
The sequel to this nightmare lasts forever, forever.


One last goodnight, with this painted picture in our minds the voice inside that sings tonight.
One last goodnight, with this painted picture in our minds the voice inside that sings tonight.
I’m not scared at all, so let’s walk away.
I’m not scared at all, so now walk away.

Dear mother now beyond the grave you’re the soul that wants me.
Front row with a cigarette, you’re the ghost that haunts me,
but I wonder?
I’m too ****ed up to come home,
I swear this heart was made of stone,
I won’t pretend that everything’s alright when it’s not.


so One last goodnight, with this painted picture in our minds the voice inside that sings tonight.
One last goodnight, with this painted picture in our minds the voice inside that sings tonight.
I’m not scared at all, so let’s walk away.
I’m not scared at all, so now walk away.

Wake me now drive faster, make me now a disaster,
take me now live after and walk away.2x


Can you design living through hell and back again?
It’s the life that’s killing you walk away friend.
Can you design living through hell and back again?
It’s the life that’s killing you walk away WALK AWAY!!!

[aklx]

Facing the world ain't easy when there isn't anything going
Standing at the corner waiting watching time go by
Will I go to work today or shall I bide my time
'Cos when I see that union man walking down the street
He's the man who decides if I live or I die, if I starve, or I eat
Then he walks up to me and the sun begins to shine
Then he walks right past and I know that I've got to get back in the line
Now I think of what my mamma told me
She always said that it would never ever work out
But all I want to do is make some money
And bring you home some wine
For I don't ever want you to see me
Standing in that line
'Cause that union man's got such a hold over me
He's the man who decides if I live or I die, if I starve, or I eat
Then he walks up to me and the sun begins to shine
Then he walks right past and I know that I've got to get back in the line

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

i once felt strong
didnt last for long
i wrap my hands around my neck]
and kill myself again!

[xColdxBleedx]

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I cant be my own
Id feel better dead

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

it's MORE THAN I CAN STAND!!

[aklx]

Have you ever been hated, or discriminated against?
I have, I've been protested and demonstrated against
Picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind of the mother****ing kid thats behind
All this commotion, emotions run deep as oceans exploding
Tempers flaring from parents just blow 'em off and keep going
Not taking nothing from no one, give 'em hell long as I'm breathing
Keep kicking ass in the morning, and taking names in the evening
Leaving with a taste as sour as vinegar in their mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now, I betcha probably sick of me now
Ain't you mama, I'ma make you look so ridiculous now

I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight, I’m cleaning out my closet

One more time

I said
I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet
Ha!

I got some skeletons in my closet
And I don't know if no one knows it
So before they throw me inside my coffin and close it
I'm a expose it, I'll take you back to '73
Before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD
I was a baby maybe I was just a couple months
My faggot father must’ve had his panties up in a bunch
'Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't, on second thought I just ****ing wished he would die
I look at Hailie and I couldn't picture leaving her side,
Even if I hated Kim, I'd grit my teeth and I'd try to make it work
With her at least for Hailie sake
I maybe made some mistakes
But I'm only human but I'm man enough to face 'em today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest **** I did was take the bullets out that gun
Cause I'd of killed 'em **** I would shot Kim and them both
It's my life, I'd like to welcome y'all to the Eminem show

I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight, I'm cleaning out my closet

One more time

I said I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet

Now I would never diss my own mama just to get recognition
Take a second to listen 'fore you think this record is dissin'
But put yourself in my position, just try to envision
Witnessing your mama popping prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitching that someone's always going through her purse and **** missing
Going through public housing systems, victim of Munchausen syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't
' Till I grew up, now I blew up it makes you sick to ya stomach, doesn't it?
Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me, MA?!
So you could try to justify the way you treated me, MA?!
But guess what, ya getting older now and it’s cold when ya lonely
And Nathan's growin' up so quick he's going to know that your phony
And Hailie’s getting' so big now, you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll neva see her, she won't even be at your FUNERAL
See what hurts me the most, is you won't admit you was wrong
Bitch do your song, keep telling' yaself that you was a mom
But how dare you try to take what you didnt help me to get,
you selfish bitch
I hope you ****in' burn in in hell for this ****
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be!

I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight I'm cleanin' out my closet

One more time

I said I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight I’m cleanin' out my closet

[My_Name_Is_Aiden]

Just close the door and let me do what I need
Cause it's better for us
If you just let me leave