Sick of being sick

[dancer3]

So I embark on another sleepless night...beautiful boyfriend is sick and asleep, beatiful pets are sleeping next to him.

Ive had bulimia for soooooooooo long, since i was 10 or 12 and i am now 21. Im a personal trainer and i run my own dance school so you can see why I feel i am a fraud.

I am also in a cycle of illegal misdemeanours on the weekend which Im not surre we can dicuss on here but i need help.

The countless phychiatrists and psychologists and counsellors have never been able to help me recover from my shame and I am not even 100% sure I want too.

This is hard but I need some guidance, I feel lost and dirty and fake. I used to self harm and I was highly suicidal a few years ago...I have not resumed self harming but my thoughts ahve been getting worse and worse in this spout of depression. I just got back from a holiday in Thailand and I started getting very down when I was away...the feelings ahve excaserbated since Ive been home and I am at my whits end because I just want to be happy and enjoy life again.

I dont know where to turn as I know what to do I just cant seem to do it.

[Shatterproof]

Hiya hun and welcome to RYL.

Hopefully we can provide you with the support and advice you need during this difficult time.

PM me anytime. xx.

[Tuesday]

Welcome to ryl :) *hugs* Feel free to PM me if you have any questions. xx

[beautiful_disaster]

Welcome to RYL! *waves*.

Everyone here is really supportive so I'm sure you'll get the support you need. I'm also a dancer and teach dance to young children and suffer with an eating disorder, so I know exactly how you feel in terms of feeling like a fraud. Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.

Feel free to PM me if you need anything or if you just want to talk.

Take care,

T xx

[Cazki]

Hiya welcome to ryl. I hope you receive the support you need. This is the guide to ryl http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...play.php?f=105 Here is the Eating Disorder Forum http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=31

This is the Serious Discussion Forum http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=30 Here is the Self Injury Discussion Forum http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=29 This is the Veterans Corner http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=77 which is where the members aged 18 and over hang out. If you need anything please feel free to get in touch.

Take care best wishes Ian

[simi]

hi and welcome to ryl
*waves hello*

[nuclearnight]

Hello, welcome to RYL *waves*

Look forward to seeing you around, feel free to get in touch if you need anything :) I hope you find what you're looking for here.

Take gentle care,
~Michelle

[crazykat]

Hello
Welcome to RYL
PM me if you need anything
Take care
Kat xxx

[Katiee]

Heyy,
Welcome to RYL!
I'm Katie, feel free to PM me anytime.
Take care. xo.

[Moonlight Princess]

Hi, and welcome to RYL!
First of I just want to say hon-that you're not dirty or a fake.
You've come here to get help for an illness which I think is very strong of you. You're certainly not a fraud either-the rate of eating disorders among dancers is higher than in the general population so your certainly not alone as you can even see from this thread. You may feel at your wits end right now but let me tell you it is possible to recover no matter how long you have been suffering. You have a whole community of support behind you now so please let us help :)
Please take care of yourself and if you ever need someone to talk to then I'm only a PM away!
Kiran
xx

[Popple]

Welcome to RYL
Hope you find everything your looking for
Feel free to pm me if you need anything
Take care
Much Love
Kathryn
xx

[Wonderland.]

Hey hun.
*waves*
Welcome to RYL
Hope you get all the help and support you need.
*hugs*
Look forward to seeing you around the boards.
My PM box is always open.

Take care.
Amy x