i'm trying not to do this. because he told me that if i do it, he'll do it too and thatd crush me with guilt. but it's hard... and i dont know if im strong enough.
*..life in pain.. *-my older sis; Sweetest Downfall-my jellybean; greenspot-my cousin; TokioPanik!-my TokioHotelTwin; darkdestiny-my pet monkey; I-Feel-Infinate-my gerbil; frombullets2black-my llama; livingnotbreathing-my fellow spy; UnsureOne-my pet goldfish; xXxHis_fallen_angelxXx-my pet monkey; ashy_ashy18-my sister; Aryn is my fellow ninja and partner in crime
Apocalyptic and insane, but my dreams will never change
Ive tried so hard to be the best friend ever, to kid myself im making up for how much ive hurt all my friends over the past months, and how im actually the worst friend ever
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
This isnt real. None of it. Its all a lie, a mirage, its not true. Im still at a top university, my family are still so so proud of me, im still falling in love with a perfect beautiful girl, i still have a really tight social sircle of friends i love, my brother still lives aroudn the corner, my dads still fine and healthy...and likes me...
None of this other stuff can be true. It just cant. This isnt my life. Its just not real. I refuse to believe that its real.
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK
I NEED MY OLD LIFE BACK
I MISS THE OLD ME
i may have been unhappy, and a geek, and awkward and a social outcast and lacking in social skills and no confidence what so ever... but my life was balanced and organised and had direction.... I WANT THAT BACK
I just had a conversation with my guinea pig (no jokes) i was convinced he was shouting at me and nagging me which resulted in me shouting back at him 'I dont need your stupid lectures all you ever do is criticise me now f*ck off!' ok..... O.O so what happened there? my little fluffball is my closest friend (i know sad) but its upset me that he would say it to me ¬¬ even though he couldnt! I just let down everyone, im useless in the true meaning of the word and am no good for anyone... no wonder they cant trust me
"It is not the strength of the body that counts, but the strength of the spirit"
-J.R.R Tolkien
I told my best friend that I am completely recovered so that she will stop worrying about me, so that I can fully concentrate on helping her recover. It makes me happy that she thinks I'm happy.