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Triggering (SI) - Detached From Reality
I just cut but I want to again. It's not enough. I need to. My sister would kill me if she knew. But I'm just so detached, so numb. I feel like there's no hope. I just want to disappear until I'm nothing and no one and nothing is left at all. Then I couldn't hurt. I wouldn't have to hurt. No one could hurt me so I wouldn't have to hurt myself. And now I can't tell my boyfriend. We've been rocky and if I tell him I'll loose him. He told me he needed space, not to call him. I turned the phone off. He's the one I go to. Now I can't. Even though I told him I needed him. He said I'd needed him the past 3 days. I'm alone. Again. Bad things happen when I'm alone. I guess he should've known the consequences.
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