Do any of you have trouble saying the "r" word (I am referring to rape) when talking about your experience? I have never been able to verbally say it or even write it out. It is weird how one word has so much power, and so much stigma. I just cannot say it because part of me thinks that maybe if I don't say it, then maybe it didn't happen.
Anyone else?
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I can write it but saying it is a bit different if I am not thinking of it in terms of me then yeah but if I am talking about myself the words just don't come.
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I haven't actually been 'r' but I have major problems in saying it, through different things that have happened, whilst being younger, and more recent. It never was actually 'r' to me personally, but yeah - sorry, I can't explain myself properly.
I won't use the word though, and when people say it in a joking sense, and use it in the wrong conext, it annoys me and makes me feel ill. It makes me want to scream at them, and hope that they will learn something, and how ignorant and insulting they are being.
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Hey I have something similar, its not with the word rape its the word assult, uch makes my skin crawl sayin it.... its because thats what my cpn calls 'it' i cant name it, i refer to it as 'it' or 'what happened'
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i can write it but have trouble saying it and i will never admit it happend to me i actually get angry when docters say that i was raped, i dont know why though xx
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I've only said it, referring to myself, out loud once, and that was hard. But I don't think it was the word itself, if I'd used other words it wouldn't have been any easier.
I have no problem writing it or saying it when I'm not referring to myself.
I didn't have as much of a problem before it happened but since I hate saying it, like my gf 's talked to me a little about it. I hate it when people make jokes out if it, just gets me thinking about stuff....gets me down like majorly down. :( I can write down the word and only say it if I have to. That's how I'd to keep it.
The first time someone used the word with me I jerked and was startled. I mean, I knew what had happened was not right, but I had never equated it to that. I still cannot say it happened, I have enough trouble saying that I was abused, period. I normally just say "he hurt me" and leave it at that. Most professionals catch my drift.
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Anon
"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. " - FDR
I have A LOT of trouble saying the 'r' word out loud....apparently writing it too :p
It's like if I don't say it outloud then it never happened...I feel too dirty saying anything about it....I can't even say or answer normal non-sexual questions like "Did that feel good?" (after completing an assignment for example) because I feel dirty if I say yes....
HATE THE WORD 'PLEASURE'....CANNOT SAY IT....AHHHHHH
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i cant say it. or lots of the other words people have mentioned. Cant write them either. I can't talk about my SI or ED either though although can write that fine.
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