Triggering (SI) - Why can't they just leave me alone?!

Beautifully_Sinned · 01-10-2008, 03:08 AM

I can't do this. It's hard enough as it is, but to be getting constant emails from Josh's address telling me it's down to me? I can't do it anymore. I can't handle, there's only so much i can ignore. I know it was my fault. So why keep rubbing it in?!

I can't do this. I can't. I cut, bad. And I want to do so much more. I can't handle any of this anymore. And yet there's more than me to think about now, but I just can't fucking do this. I can't. Not anymore.

I want it to stop. For it to be over. I don't want to hurt anymore. This has pushed me to my limit, possibly even over it. It can't handle this shit anymore! Why do this to me? Why constantly bring me back down again? Why?! Yes, I killed him. But my guilt is enough already, so why send me an email claiming to be him? Just....WHY?!

SuperEMY · 01-10-2008, 03:15 AM

Oh, Nat darling. *cuddles gently*
I know you've already done that to yourself, but please, don't do anymore. Because as you said, there's more than just yourself to think about now. Try and use that as motivation to distract yourself, or think of other ways that you can let your pain out.

Obviously, I don't know what's gone on, but don't let this get the better of you and destroy you. It's a sick thing for that boy to do, it just shows how sick people can really get. Just remember, you're better than this guy and you can't let him win. It's what he wants.

You know where I am if you need a shoulder.
xxx

Beautifully_Sinned · 01-10-2008, 03:21 AM

I know. I can't believe I did this knowing what I do. But I'm so desperate Wifey. I want so bad to do something more, but I can't because...well you know.

Thanks for replying hun.

SuperEMY · 01-10-2008, 03:25 AM

I know, sweetheart. But my love, you'll be alright. You're stronger than this.
*hunts that silly boy down*

Nobody upsets me wifey and gets away with it.
Think of the future, and how happy you're going to be, because you will be.
I promise you.
xxx

Beautifully_Sinned · 01-10-2008, 03:28 AM

Heh, thanks chicken. You're good wifey.

xxx

SuperEMY · 01-10-2008, 03:31 AM

k? Good. :)
<3

Beautifully_Sinned · 01-10-2008, 03:40 AM

:) thanks lovey. You're a legend.
How comes your up? And not in chat? I miss my wifey.
xxx

SuperEMY · 01-10-2008, 03:41 AM

:) don't worry about it.

I'm not tired. And I logged into chat when I read this, but you weren't on.
Wifey misses wifey.
<3

airwolf282 · 02-10-2008, 12:51 AM

hey hun,

sorry to hear this is going on. i used to get sent nasty abusive emails and texts from ex girlfriends just when i was trying to forget about it all and move on. i know how much it can bring you down so i think the best thing you can do is block this email address. hopefully he will get the message.

sorry i couldn't be of much help.

nathan