I'm so tired of screaming and crying now. I'm so tired of hurting. I'm completely alone. Please can I have a cuddle? I want to know what it feels like to not be hurt. I want to know what it's like to be looked after, held gently, respected. I want to know what it feels like to be truly safe.
But it's never going to happen.
I want to take these tablets, fall asleep and never wake up in pain again.
I love you, Chels. So much. I don't want you to be in this pain. It hurts to see you like this. Please, don't do anything silly, love. You're not alone. We're ALL here for you because we all love you so much.
Could you talk to someone? Get to a safe place? For us, Chels?
Please, don't do anything rash.
Ily Chels <3
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CHELS. No. Don't. Please. Put the tablets back.
We can hear you. We can all hear you, and we're not going to hurt you.
We'd hold you if we could, be a shoulder to cry on, be there for you.
Everything will be alright. Have faith in yourself that you can pull through this.
We love you, Chels. We all do, and none of us want to see anything happen to you.
xxx
chels baby!!! <3 i hear you. *cuddles tight and refuses to let go*
please take care baby =[ no tablets *shakes head* poke me on msn?
love you so much =[
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
*cuddles you gently* I hear you sweetheart, I'm so sorry that things are so bad for you right now, please try and stay safe we all care about you so much *cuddles more* only a pm away xx
I hope you managed to get a little sleep last night.
I don't have much else to add, but I wanted you to know that I hear you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
It hurts a lot. More than I have words for. I shouldn't talk to anyone, I'm evil. Bleeding out the poison won't work, scalding the dirt off won't work, don't know what else to try. I. Am. A. Whore. I've accepted it, why won't anyone else >.<
And Josh - above reasons. Whores weren't made to have nice things.
