Say here what you can't say to someone/Get something off your chest-new rules post 1

[iamuseless]

Why do you care about me? i am fat ugly useless and crazy as hell, so what do you see in me? wouldnt you prefer someone who isnt fat ugly useless and crazy as hell

[Kiss Me Furfrog]

I never bothered to maintain a relationship.
I thought you were using me and S to see if we knew where our dad was.
I didn't hear from you for 5 years after you discovered we knew nothing of his whereabouts.
We were texting each other frequently last year, and I started to feel that sisterly bond you've always wanted.
You said you were so excited to be involved in your twin sisters lives, and that you loved us no matter what. That was super nice.
And then I went through a particularly bad patch and drifted away.
And now you're in a coma and are most likely going to die.
It's not fair.
I've abused my body so much over the last 14 years, and I haven't ended up where you are now, even though I wanted/want to so badly.
You have always looked after yourself.
And what is your reward?
Meningitis, pneumonia and fucking swine flu.
People don't just come back from that.
And I didn't get to spend much time with you.
Didn't get to know you like I should have.
You're 12 years older than me, but I feel we would've got on really well.
I'ma come see you tomorrow.
Your little sister was kind enough to call me and invite me to the hospital, even though she doesn't know me at all.
I'm scared.
I don't want to have to say goodbye before I've even had the chance to properly say hello.


And I am insanely jealous right now.
I wish mother nature would take me away.

[planemo]

not too a bad a birthday, i suppose. it would have been nice if i had a close friend to talk to, and to go out with. sitting at home all the time is pretty darn boring. but i know why i do it. today when i did surround myself with people, yet again, i wished i was somewhere "safe" and away from all of them.

why the heck do i feel this way? what's wrong with me?
why do i always feel inferior/different/abnormal when i'm around them?

i've become such a bitter, heart-hardened old fool. my heart doesn't want to let anyone in anymore. i suppose after the last "friend" left with no reply, it's no surprise that i feel this way.

i know i'm better off alone, since people around me don't tolerate quiet, shy people like me.

if only i didn't have all these flaws, then maybe i would have been good enough for someone (like her). but i'm not. i'm a mess in every way. it was the hardest thing knowing i wouldn't ever see her again, and even though it's been so many years, i still hurt. she wouldn't have looked down on me, for being who i am. i know this...

unfortunately everyone else is not that considerate.

why do i even write this? i suppose i feel a bit better when these thoughts aren't clogging my mind...

damned if you do, damned if you don't. when you reach that stage in your life, i guess it's not worth trying to pick up the pieces anymore.

*sigh*

[88shelz]

I feel alone:what:

[xfallenangel08x]

Who do you think you are
Who do you think I am
You only loved to see me breaking
You only want me cause I'm taken
You don't really want my heart
No, you just like to know you can
You'll be the one who gets it breaking
You only want me when i'm taken

[[Luna]]

I'm relieved that he cancelled tonight because frankly he's high and it scares me. I couldn't handle it if he shouts at me the way he shouted at S. I know you'd be there and you'd protect me but I have to walk on eggshells because he's mood is volatile. I'm also scared because he's the hanging man and the way he's behaving is scaring the shit out of me.

[Uglyducklin]

I'm so afraid I've lost the plot. I'm stuck this FAT. I want to be like every other anorexic

[Kame]

You're welcome :) I hope you're okay. I do miss how close we used to be but adult life is tough and busy so I understand! <3

[Pomegranate]

I don't know if I'm excited or scared but I've given up trying to be 'responsible'. I can't even take a normal paracetamol dose and that makes me want to cry.

[MunchBox]

Why are you so adamant about me telling them, I can't do it, I won't; they mustn't know what's in me.

[Pi.R^2]

I'm so proud of you. Thank you for being so wonderful.

[Sketchy]

I spent the past week in hospital because they forced me and used the metal health act. I told you this, and I was scared and extremely distressed. The first day in there I told you. I have never felt so bad. I told you visiting times. Where were you?

I feel so confused and mixed up. I feel like I'm a bad person, wrong.

[The War Doctor]

I don't want to leave.

[Indigo.]

I thought maybe it was all in my head. why was I so happy when I saw that on her Facebook profile; why? Does that mean she might feel the same way or am I imagining things. And even if it was like that...what could possibly happen between us? Could we even try to maintain a relationship? Like this?

[Fire Fly]

Sorry I'm psycho and just not what you wanted in your family.

[BeTrueToYourself]

I can't believe how little I meant to you and how much you meant to me.

[Buttons.]

If you've screwed them over whatever the motive I will be so so angry with you. I just don't need this and I feel responsible because I introduced you too them. I'm just hoping it's not true and you haven't run off with this money. I don't want to believe it's true.

[Ardea]

please give me the strength to make it through this.

[Aardbei]

I don't know what to do. I can't get involved again, but I can't do nothing, because then the guilt will be unbearable.

What do you want me to do?

[PointeLullaby]

"You don't know how much you hurt people"
"I don't know where I went wrong"
SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!!