Triggering (SI) - sorry.

finding.my.wings · 18-08-2009, 06:58 AM

i havent cut for a while but right now im very tired (lack of energy) nd having trouble concenteating and have a real desire jsut to cut...........just to see that im still alive and theres something other than emptyness in me. i dont know if i want to do this but i jsut havent for soooooooooooo long- today while washing the dishes i took a nick out of my finger by accedient on the potoato peeler...... but now i want more, and im strggling.

longversion · 18-08-2009, 07:03 AM

try to distract urself..rubberband maybe... u'll regret it if u cut again...the pleasure and satisfaction seeing blood and feeling the pain are just temporary...and u'll keep wanting to cut again and again...

loveishere · 18-08-2009, 07:07 AM

Well done on not cutting for a while, that takes a lot of strength, and even though you are struggling now, you can keep up that strength. There's better ways to see that you are alive and feel not-empty, is there anything else that helps you feel alive? I wish I could be of more help, if you want to talk about anything I am always willing to listen. I hope you can stay safe.

Wakeful Dreamer. · 18-08-2009, 09:32 AM

If you haven't done it for a while, you can keep going that way. You're strong enough to make it through the urges.
Distract yourself. Talk it out. Talk yourself out of it. I'm here if you want somebody to talk to. Good luck. *hugs*

88shelz · 18-08-2009, 10:51 AM

gosh the urges are always so hard...
i accidently cut a part of of my finger last week while washing dishes and strangly the same effect happened... i wanted more

i ended up taking the same things tha cut me and used it to hack at at a tomato... (probably sounds useless and stupid) but i was cutting somthing that wasnt me that had red lliquid spill out of it.

perhaps you could try something like that instead of harming yourself

finding.my.wings · 21-08-2009, 01:26 AM

hey all, thanks for the replies.
just an update- the urges are getting harder to control now :( and im cutting myself without realising it. i know this isnt the best thing to be happening but yeah it is...im not sure i can keep fighting this now.