The Why Not to Start SI'ing Again List.

[that faery kid]

~so that i dont have to lie anymore.
~because i want to learn to love myself.
~because cutting seperates me from god.
~because i AM worth something happy.
~because cutting kills my muse
~because i dont dream when i cut.
~because i dont want to be empty anymore.

[TinkerDebs]

* i want to be able to GENUINELY SMILE because i am GENUINELY HAPPY
* i want to live my life - not spend my time acting [my wall is one hell of an act]
* want to prove to my friends that im not gonna waste my life
* want to prove to myself i have inner strength to fight
* don't want to spend my summer's in hiding
* dont want more reminders on my arms

[TheSuffererComplex]

Cause you don't know when the last time that you will see someone will be, and you want them to know the TRUTH

Because I am sick of the cuts and the bloody laundry

[ifonly]

-so that i can have my long nails back.
-because theyre getting to hard to hide
-so that when i say im fine or im ok i actually mean it.
-so that my best friend will stop worrying about me.
-because im sick of feeling like a failure.

[Artyom]

so i dont feel like sh*t all the time

[CoffeeawakestheArtist]

to not make my little brother cry when he sees my arms.
xxxx

[spanish-lullabies]

so that i can swim at the pool without anxiety

& so that i can go to my best friend's house without having to see her face when she notices.

[destructogirl]

so i can actually feel things again
so i don't have to be so on guard all the time
so i can actually have a good friendship with my mum again without hiding everything from her
so i can be happy without this big secret

[MyApocalypse]

This is a really great thread. Some of these are probably repeats but...

• So that my friends can continue being proud of me
• So I can move on and become the happy person I once was
• So I don't have to worry about people seeing and asking about it
• So that I don't have to wake up in the morning and stare up and down my arms and legs
• So that I can continue to learn to rely on God and grow in his strength instead of shutting Him out and doing things my way
• So that I don't have to live with the fear of my mom seeing
• So I don't feel guilty everytime I do it
• So I can have a recovery story to inspire others to stop
• So that I can learn how to deal with strong feelings that may seem unbearable
• So my teacher doesn't have to worry about whether or not she needs to send me to a counsellor
• So I can stop lying to myself saying I'm fine, and so I can stop lying to my friends when they know I'm not

That's all I can think of right now. This definitely helped me to think of a lot of reasons why I should keep going. Sometimes giving up seems the easiest thing to do, but this list helps to remember why I want to stop in the first place! ONE MONTH BABY!

[Twisted Fate]

To enjoy life without having to be obsessed with perfection and hurting myself.
To possibly start to like myself… just a little bit

[Gentlementalmen]

-to stop hurting my boyfriend every time i cut
-to stop hurting my family
-to be able to wear short skirts and shorts again
-to be able to go swimming again around people who dont know
-to be able to stop hiding
-to stop the paranoia
-so i dont have to continuously scrub my carpet to get rid of the blood
-so my anemia due to blood loss can get lost
-to be proud of myself for achieving such a massive victory over myself

[flybat3]

bumps

[Strawberry.Bananas]

- To stop being paranoid that my scars are showing.
- To not have any secrets from those closest to me.
- To be able to dress comfortably in formal situations.
- To not have to make sure I have a 'tool' with me at all times.
- To be able to support others that want to stop with my own experiences and new coping mechanisms.
- To be able to concentrate on more important things.

[TheSuffererComplex]

Cause wearing wristbands and gloves in the summer sucks so bad.

[Renee NAY]

to feel normal and not have to hide.

[TheHurtWillNeverHeal]

I like the one about the cat's reputation!!

I know some of these are repeats...

• to not see the hurt, disappointment and worry in the eyes of people I care about
• to stop hurting the people I care about and who care about me
• No one deserves this
• So I can have better coping skills
• To stop waking up every morning to a body covered in fresh cuts
• To be able to say, "I USED to cut"
• To know I made it through. I survived.
• To be able to look at my scars and not feel like a failure and to not feel ashamed
• To not be afraid of people seeing my cuts and scars
• To be able to stop hiding

[Misunderstood.]

Because I can do this without it.
I hope.

[alienshe_cheesycake]

So I can live without the label of "cutter"
So I can be more than that
So I can be myself, whoever that is

[greenspot]

So i can say i'm happy and mean it
So I dont have to be in constant fear of people knowing
So i can look at "tools" and picture them cutting me
So i can say i used to cut
So i can like myself even a little

-So i can go out without worrying what my parents/sister might find
-So when people ask "hey, you ok?" i can say YES and MEAN IT!
-So i can go swimming one day
-So i can wear shorts out
-So i can wear shorts in bed in fact!
-So i don't need to worry about those blood stained pj bottoms at the end of my bed >.<
-So i dont need to lie about carpet burns that "happened by accident"
-So i can take a shower without seeing all that damage
-So if i become a counsellor, i can say "i know how you feel, but im living proof you can make it"
-So when im one year free i can get a peircing! yay!


Lovee this thread:)