I feel so distracted right now, I have this problem all the time that all I can think about is cutting and I have an essay to hand in tomorrow that I already had to go and get an extension for because I couldn't concentrate on it enough to write it for the original deadline.
I already cut tonight and my arm feels unusually painful which makes it even harder not to think about. I have so much else going round in my head because of things happening at the moment, and it's so hard to think properly at all.
I keep thinking about going for a run, I've never done it but I really want to run somewhere.
Yeah I don't know.
How can I keep my mind focused on one thing? That is not cutting...
I feel really distracted with essays at the minute as well. Have you tried working for 15 minutes or so and then having a break? By having something to eat, facebook or myspace? Then going back to working.
I will give it a go. But I can't even think for that long. I've spent ages just staring at a blank page, not really thinking about what to write at all. I'm usually ok once I get into it, it's just the initial getting focused on the task that's really hard, because I can't ignore the thoughts about cutting.
Try and do something that will distract you thinking about cutting, then start with your work. If you feel like your getting distracted on cutting again, have a quick break.
Go for a run. I find running helps me a ton. Have you tried distraction like ice and rubberbands? I assume you're at uni, so are you reg. with disability services? If not, you might want to consider it so extensions are easier b/c of your anxiety/sadness which becomes debiliatating.
I would suggest the run. If youve got the urge then go for it. It releases endorphins, and excercize always helps me feel better, more.. free and it gives a good release feeling.
hope your essay is coming along ok.
does the prof\teacher know that youve got some personal problems?
"They say time heals all wounds. I don't agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessons, but it is never gone." - Rose Kennedy
I didn't get anything done yesterday. I really did try, so hard, but in the end I gave up and went to bed because I wasn't getting anywhere. Anything I did write down just didn't make sense :(
The teacher doesn't know about my problems. I've thought about telling her or another teacher but I'm worried they'll have to tell my parents, because last year I broke down in school and they phoned home, and I'm also just too scared to say it. I'm in the last year of high school, and these exams determine my uni place next year, so they're not really helping to make me feel any better. It'd be a load off my mind if I could get some help from my teachers but I really don't know if I want them to know.
I think it depends on your age, if your under 18 teachers do have a right to tell your parents. But if you really do not want them to know, check before you say anything, ask in what circumstances would they have to talk to parents. If your not a danger to yourself, and you ask them not too, then they shouldn't.
I would recommend telling a teacher, but only tell them if you trust them and actually want too. Most teachers are great with things like SH, and it will definatly be a load off your mind. If your scared about telling them, just tell your teacher that you have something to tell her, and if it helps write it down. Good luck.
Ok thanks I think I might do that. I will be checking first whether they have to tell my parents or not, because my parents finding out would only make it worse in my opinion. I am not 18 yet, I have an August birthday unfortunately. But I really need the help, so I'm hoping that they won't have to tell my parents.
If you let them know how much it would make it worse if your parents finding out, they would have to respect that you don't want them too, so they might not. But they might get you to speak to the school counsellor, or head or something.
I'm in exactly the same place as you. I'm doing my A Levels for my uni place and I have zero concentration. All I think about is SI. I went to a teacher about 2/3 weeks ago and they haven't told my parents. I would really reccomend it because they really help and you know theres someone you can talk to. Also she refered me to a counsellor and i've found it really good so far. I really think you should try, they will understand. They are there to help you. I know how hard it is, I thought about it for weeks before I plucked up the courage to do it. PM me if you want to. xx
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