Rock bottom and breaking point

[irishruggersgirl]

I used to be able to explain what was going on in my head. I used to have a voice and I could find the words to express what was wrong but recently it's gotten so bad, the misery and loneliness have become so consuming I just don't know where to begin. Everything is going to ****. I have no life, no friends, even when surrounded by people I feel all alone. I'm invisible to everyone. Even second I spend at work I'm thinking about how I can kill myself. What's scary is it seems the most logical solution. Even the reasons that have helped stop me in the past or pulled me back from the brink have all fallen away and I can even justify to myself that the ones left wouldn't matter any much anyway. What do I do? Where do I go? Need some help because I'm so tired of trying to fight my way out of this. I hate the world and everything in it. I just want it to stop spinning so I don't have to deal with it. I'm at rock bottom, and I'm holding it together by a thread!

[freakangel]

I'm sorry that you are struggling so much right now. It is a hard place to be in. When you can not find the words to reach out and explain how oh at feeling and what you need is even harder. It is good that thou have reached out on here. Can you do anything like try to write down things as you think them that way youd be able go show someone? I dunno. It sucks when you feel your at rock bottom with nowhere to go but you have to remember that there are people out there that care. As hard as it is try to find a way to reach out (like you have on here). If you need anything I am here for ya. Take care.

[CrazyChaoticMess]

Once you've hit rock bottom the only way out is up. Things will become clearer and you'll remember the reasons to hold on. You've fought thus far, giving in now would be pointless.
I'm sorry to hear you're struggling, have you thought to seek professional help?
I know how hard things can be when you can't find the words to express how you feel, i've always had that issue, but with help it can become a hall of alot easier. There are other ways of expressing emotion, like drawing writing things down, painting, dancing, singing, poetry, the list is endless. Just keep trying, you're not alone.

[xPureFollyx]

@irishruggersgirl

Sometimes god has to break you down completely before you can be rebuilt. He has to demolish you to your very foundation because even that Is unstable. Only when all of the old building has been demolished can he start to create a strong and functional dwelling for himself.
Mortality hangs over us all and at times death seems like the best option. The trick is to live in spite of that, without letting the eventuality of loneliness or pain determine the quality of our present life.

This is where you are today there is no telling where you will be tomorrow change is always a possibility. Even when the sky is heavily overcast the sun hasn't disappeared, its still there on the other side of the clouds.

(PM me if you need to).