Sorry to hear that your experience with services so far has been this negative.
I think the first step is to go back to your GP and explain your dissatisfaction with what the psychiatrist has put in the letter. It is okay to ask for a second opinion, or highlight what you think your biggest problems/symptoms are. As you are on a waiting list for therapy it might be viewed that you're going to receive support soon, but if you feel like you can't wait that long then it's important to tell your GP what is making things so difficult. They might be able to see you more frequently to monitor your mental health, or refer you back to a CMHT if necessary. Try to be as clear as possible; list what you're experiencing and how it is impacting on each area of your life (e.g. relationships, work, physical health, personal interests).
I would advise caution against self-diagnosis, though. Even if you have a good understanding of mental health, it is difficult (if not impossible) for anyone to assess themselves accurately. BPD can be diagnosed quite easy because there are so many combinations of symptoms, and it may be that there is a better way of understanding and treating what you are going through. Only a psychiatrist or psychologist can make a diagnosis, and personality disorders in particular take a while to diagnose.
I hope you feel you can speak with your GP (don't be afraid of seeing different GPs until you find one that listens to your concerns). It is really frustrating waiting for support to be provided. In the meantime feel free to keep posting here; talking can be a very therapeutic way of coping.
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