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Triggering (SI) - messengers
I think I ran into another messenger. I think He really is out there somewhere, hunting me down. I had thought that wasn't true anymore, but I think it is. Why, I don't know. I think He's sending me these people to make me anxious or something. I know you all probably think i'm crazy by this point but if you've read any of my other posts i talked about thinking there was a guy after me. Well I had another strange occurrence today. I was at the bus stop, and this guy started talking to me. He looks similar to the creepy guy at the bookstore but younger. Anyway, I somehow KNEW he was going to ask me if I was in school. Maybe to find out if I'm legal I figured, but now I think it was just to get me to talk about subjects i find uncomfortable. Then he asked me where I was headed. I said dr. It eventually came out that I was headed for the psychiatrist. He said, "you're crazy aren't you" and i'm thinking, is that supposed to be hitting on me still?
he also said earlier i had a nice smile... it seems a lot of guys tell me that. maybe there's been more messengers than i thought. He then touched my arm and pointed to an almost invisible scar and asked if i was a cutter and "liked to cut myself"! I got that freaking scar from a cat. what kind of stranger would be so rude? I just said I try not to (cut) and that my stop was here (which it was) and got off not thinking about it. But tonight i was thinking about it all. Maybe the Echo brought it to my attention. I think it's all coming together. I'm just not sure what his motive is for sending guys who act similar. The guy at the bookstore asked LOTS of questions too, and when he saw i had a pill bottle in my purse asked me why i was on medication. what kind of guys ask that personal of questions when they're hitting on a girl??? i don't think that's what they were doing. I think He has some sort of aim by sending all these people. Whether it's to scare me or what, I don't know.
Ok, so we have 1.) weird guy who knew my sister had a sister who lived around here and my sister lives 20 miles away and i had just moved here 2.) some youngish guy stalking my mom (she said so, and that'd be odd as she is much older than this guy was) 3.) creepy guy in the bookstore 4.) creepy rude guy at the bus stop... all asking lots of questions. the two i saw managing to get me to admit to mental illness. maybe he's mocking me for having come back with such a mental illness? anyway, one knowing stuff he had no way of knowing and was such a weird guess if you knew me & my sister's different living situations...
the Echo is trying to help me piece it together. He must have been sent after the other He (who must have sent the Whisper to counteract it) did whatever is causing all this and Him to be after me.
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