psychosis?

Cacoethes · 31-05-2009, 09:21 PM

i can feel things crawling all over me
and i can see things crawling on the floor, only for a split second, then they disappear.

i trying to work out if its real or just my 'schitzophrenia'.
it cant be though, i can feel them, its so real.
im really confused and i need a bit of help/support/ whatever
im freaking out a bit

PrincessVegeta_x · 01-06-2009, 02:16 AM

The 'things' crawling on the floor are not real. I know you think that they are - and to be honest, so would I - but your brain is just tricking you. Hallicinations are normal in psychosis and schizophrenia... part of the illness is that you see things that aren't there. So, basically, if I was in the room with you... you'd see them crawling on the floor, and I wouldn't.

Do you have a diagnosis of psychosis/schizophrenia at all? Do you have any support from your doctor/mental health teams?

I hope you're ok.
x

tamobhuuta · 01-06-2009, 02:23 PM

the things aren't real, even though i can completely understand why they are real to you. if i remember rightly you're with the EIP - can you tell them about this? forgive me if i've got you mixed up with someone else!

Cacoethes · 01-06-2009, 04:33 PM

i do have schitzophrenia, im on medication.
so they must be real, the medication would make them go away wouldnt it?

tamobhuuta · 01-06-2009, 04:54 PM

sometimes it takes a while to get teh right meds, or for it to help, or to get to the right dose. sometimes other therapies are needed at the same time. there's all manner or reasons why meds might not be working, that doesn't mean they're real. can you check with someone IRL whether they're there, that might make you feel better about it?

Cacoethes · 01-06-2009, 05:29 PM

im seeing my eip worker on friday
i suppose ill just have to cope with it until then
its just really freaking me out
i cant talk to my mum about it becuase she will get all concerned and think im 'ill' again.
cant talk to anyone :(

tamobhuuta · 01-06-2009, 07:34 PM

*hugs* stay talking to us here if it helps

Cacoethes · 01-06-2009, 07:41 PM

it does help
talking to people that understand and dont make you feel like a total psycho.
the crawling things have stopped for now
but i can still feel a dark presence here
im trying to ignore it
but its so strong

Cacoethes · 02-06-2009, 06:02 PM

MAKE IT STOP
i cant cope with the voices, the crawling things, the fallen angels
please, i neeed some support

tamobhuuta · 02-06-2009, 06:37 PM

*hugs* what are you up to now honey?

Cacoethes · 02-06-2009, 07:25 PM

watching a dvd. lurking around ryl.
i dont have the energy to do much else
im just sitting here being freaked out by voices
i know its probably not the most helpful thing to do
but as i said
i have no energy

tamobhuuta · 02-06-2009, 08:04 PM

i think watching a dvd is a good idea. is it helping much as a distraction?

Ami · 02-06-2009, 08:14 PM

aye try and keep distracted hun x

Cacoethes · 02-06-2009, 08:27 PM

im trying.
its all making me really low
i dont want to have to cope with all this anymore

tamobhuuta · 02-06-2009, 09:07 PM

i know, it seems unfair that you should have to deal with this, but unfortunately the only way to beat it is to keep fighting

XTC · 02-06-2009, 09:12 PM

how long have you been on the meds? some meds can be ineffective for some people and good for others, you might have to try diffrent ones (after discussion with your psych/GP/so on) to find the ones that work best for you.

some meds can also take a few weeks to go fully into effect.

if you have been on them for a long time you might have built up a toelrance and should also discuss that with your dr.

Cacoethes · 02-06-2009, 09:45 PM

i have been on the medication for probably about 2 years.
its clozapine, ive been on loads of different anti-psychotics before.
this one did work, but recently all the voices and stuff have been getting worse.
but i try to avoid my consultant at all costs.
gah
im so confused

tamobhuuta · 03-06-2009, 06:16 PM

why do you avoid him, do you not get on? could you ask for someone else?

Cacoethes · 03-06-2009, 07:47 PM

she hates me, i never liked her.
one reason is that if she had filled in my provisional driving licence form when she got it i would be driving by now, but instead she waited until i got admitted again so they refused. ¬_¬
i know it sounds stupid, but i live in a rural area and i need to drive!

there is no point in asking for someone else, i am moving on to adult care when i am 18, which is in october.

i went to my friends house to watch a movie, that was good, but the voices wouldnt shut up so i couldnt concentrate on the movie or what my friends were saying.
it was quite frustrating

tamobhuuta · 03-06-2009, 09:12 PM

i'm glad you had soemthing to do at least. what are your lpans for the rest of the evening? your psych does sound annoying and though it makes sense not to bother when you're moving soon, october does seem a very long time away when your symptoms are still bad. could you speak to your GP to get him/her to have a word?