Triggering (SI) - Im on the sick...

[Diamonds.]

I had a complete and utter breakdown at work today. I felt useless and like a failure today. Ive been put on the sick, got medication and am getting reffered to a psych to be assessed.

I feel like a failure for going on the sick and im scared of the consequences(sp?). Im stressing myself out even more, incase I get fired, and its making me ill.

My brain is going into complete melt down and im scared for my life. I don't know what to do or say to make myself feel any better.

I want to cut so bad, and i don't know if i should or not. I want to die tbh. Just to scared to end it all.

[starnight]

Don't worry about being fired, they can't fire you for being off work sick or they would have no workers. I've been working in the same place for 7 years and in total at least 3 were taken off sick :O

How are you doing this morning?

[tamobhuuta]

like starnight said, they can't fire you so don't stress about that. i'm sorry you're feeling so bad and hope you feel better soon. hopefully seeing the psych will help you do that xxx

[Diamonds.]

Im ok. Im a bit stressed. I feel like im coping on medication again, which i HATE doing. But i know deep down i have to. I feel like an absolute failure.
x

[Tig]

You aren't a failure at all. Is it being on medication that makes you feel that way? It is fantastic that the medication isn't helping and it doesn't make you a bad person because you rely on medication to help you. If you were physically ill, you more than likely wouldn't feel guilty for needing the medication then. Lots of people are on psychiatric medication for loads of different reasons.
I'm sorry you are feeling a little stressed. Is there anything that helps you to relax? Be gentle on yourself, do the things you enjoy and take your time. You will get back to work when you are ready and you will get better sweetie.
x

[Ami]

*huggles**

keep safe hun, sorry i dont have much advice but i already think you're an amazing person :)

xxxxx