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Triggering (SI) - Letter to my psychiatrist - replies appreciated ASAP
My mood is getting progressively worse. I'm not sleeping or eating properly. Drinking heavily to try to escape the thoughts in my head. Lacking motivation to do anything and consequently getting behind in academic work, which may have a significant impact upon exams and whether I will be allowed to continue at university next year.
A friend who is a psychology graduate suggested I have all the symptoms of Munchausens Syndrome or a factitious disorder of some sort. I have looked it up and agree that I have a tendency to fabricate or produce symptoms in myself with the primary intention of assuming 'the sick role' without any external incentives. Also suggested I display some signs of ADHD: poor organisational skills, difficulty focusing, mood swings, inability to deal with stress, irritability, impatience, risk-taking, poor social skills, forgetfulness, short attention span etc. I would like to look into these further if possible.
Increasing thoughts of suicide and self harm made worse by worsening auditory hallucinations.
The reason I want comments on this is because I'm really scared he's not going to take me seriously. It terrifies me that he'll just ignore everything I say.
Would really appreciate some comments.
Sorry it's long.
Thanks.
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