I Cant Live.

[worthless x]

I am so paranoid and my anxiety is super high.

Something happened to me late last year or something. I've completely changed. I jump at everything. I'ms cared about everything.

I don't leave the house. I dont get dressed. I think I'm going to die or something will happen to me if I leave the house.

I dont know what happened to me, but I've changed, for the worst.

I cant even live anymore.. I litually dont have a life.

..I don't know what to do. I want to see my GP but I cant be bothered going.

It's my Mum's Birthday in a wee I need to go and get her stuff. I need to go stay with her. I'm scared to go out.

i dont know if i just need a friend?

worthless x

[consequential]

ur anxious and u ned to talk to someone
if you havent learned to meditiate to control these feellings then maybe a doc can help
i know where ur coming form other ppl can be very scary at times but u need to know ur special and fine and u can get by regardless
do you have others around who support you cos life is **** anyway but when theres ppl who love you it makes it better
i know exactly how u feel pm me if u ned to talk anyway
sometimes docs arent any good but u need to c the gp for your own good if your not leaving the house
its weird the more you surround yourself with something the more u get scared without it and maybe thats whats wrong wiht you
maybe if you brought something familiar that you have on your person out in the open with you you might feel better ,something that you have around the house you could eve put it into a bag of sorts
then you could touch it and think of home .might sound stupid but i bet it works
i hope for you
we are here for you xxxxx

[one lie at a time]

I'm sorry that you're having to deal with so much anxiety. I understand, a bit. I struggle with anxiety, too. It's difficult, stressful, and hard to deal with. If you can, you really should try to see your GP. I know you said you can't be bothered, but it might really help you. Anxiety is treatable. But you have to take the steps to get there. At least try to make an appointment, maybe? You can PM me if you ever need to talk about anything. xxx