how far to go till u crack

[consequential]

i just been on my last thread
really bad time at the mo if you wanna update
im just wondering how much it takes b4 i go ****ing crazy again
i can feel it coming and no one is helping the doc is umimpressed and not doing anything to help
im there at night i just want to drink my self into oblivion to get over the stress im feeling
its like the whole world is coming ontop of me and i cant help it
last night i cried myself to sleep and guess what no one gives a ****
i been through so much i think i deserve a break
i feel like the whole world is conspiring against me and theres noone on my side
when i talk to ppl its like they r miles away on a different planet on a different plane and they will never understand me but i try so hard to weaken the gap
how thin is the wall of craziness im close so close i can smell it

[iloverats]

i know the feeling.
except i've already cracked, and indeed, gone crazy.

i know it's fustrating when nothing and no one is helping.

can't offer advice, just letting you know, your not alone.
hope that things get better, soon.
xx

[consequential]

thanks for your reply
i have been there b4 been crazy and i hope ull be ok but im just hanging on and really dont want to go back to being institutionalised being injected not being able to walk talking away my slippers being signed in my family
no no no no no no no no
and i cant even get an anti d form the doc its a ****ing joke like or something to calm me dowm im hyper all of the time

[consequential]

my sister went for me there now shouting into my face and my dad said it was all my fault
he was getting a solicitors letter to get me barred from the house and i have no where to go ]i cant even have a beer and he makes a comment about it its a living nightmare
does anyone else find it hard like this