thoughts taking over

[Sunshine]

I went for a swim just now, and as soon as i got in water i started having these thoughts of drowning myself but i thought i have to deal with them so i tried swimming anyway and then i had a full blown panick attack in the water.

It was because i was having these thoughts and they got so scary because i didnt think i would be able to control myself and a very small part of me doesnt want to die, even though a strong bit obviously does!

i feel like a total idiot! not even being able to do a simple thing like swim! does anyone else have this problem and how do you overcome it?

[trina1723]

*hugs*
its hard, having everyday things be really hard because they just trigger you, i understand how you feel. i often find myself thinking that sort of thing when im riding my horses, i could so easily throw myself off and get myself hurt.
you have to try not to listen to your thought, and not act on them, i know its hard, really really hard.
i have no tips on how to do it, sorry
xxx