Frustrated and feeling numb

[Sandy]

I am having a rough time. I was asked to write a article for the Mental Health Ass,in my area,cause I use to write for the Mental Health World. I decided to write a article about the day treatment program that I go to.I feel good about it,but I do not feel the positive feelings that I should feel inside,I know that I have low self-esteem,but it does get frustrating and I do get angry with myself,cause I feel numb,it is like I can feel the negative feelings,they always stay,but not the positve ones. It might be from my illness which is Borderline Personality Disorder,not sure. It does get to me. Has anyone dealt with this before,and how do I change this. My therapist is on vacation this coming week. If anyone has any suggestions or ideals,you can post them here or PM me. Thanks.It is starting to really bother me.

[Jelly Fairy]

I'm afraid that I don't really have any suggestions as I know very little about BPD. However, I would like to say that you should be really proud of yourself for being able to write articles about mental health issues because they are sure to be of benefit to others. Did your therapist leave you any details of who to contact if you needed somone while they were away?

Ahem....I guess this wasn't much help, but I was subtley trying to bump this for you.

Take Care

Jelly x

[Sandy]

Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me.I have a back up at day treatment program if I need someone to talk to. I enjoy writing and it has helped me alot.I am watching t.v,with my boy-friend and taking it easy. Be back on later