Triggering (Suicide) - i realy cant take this no more

[cazzy]

everthing seems to be going rong
my gran haveing canser.
my family being realy odd about my si and not letting me have any priversy.
feeling shut out from my family.
i NOW have a drinking problum.
the voices in my head are wors then ever and telling me to kill myself or si.
what am i ment to do i cant take it
i realy dont want to go back to college aswell back to the bullying on tusday.
and back to the cores i am failing.
i just want to end it all
and my ed is getting wors.


PLEAS HELP ME

[Sigma]

it sounds tough at the moment, but please try to hang on. Is there anyone you can talk to about this? Are you seeing a doctor or a counsellor?

[cazzy]

i am seeing a docter and conserla i am nto seeing the docter again till next week or so when i am put on the meds(if my mum lets it happen).
i am not that strong i dont think i can hang in mutch longer.
i spend last night in hosbatle

[Sigma]

did you see a doctor last night? if so, did you manage to tell them how you're feeling?

take care

[cazzy]

i got rushed to hosbatle last night and they patched em up and sent me on my way

[Sigma]

can you see if you can get an earlier appointment with the doctor or your counsellor? if you let them know you need more support?

[cazzy]

yer i am going to try and try and get my meds mooved forwood aswell

[Sigma]

that sounds a good idea - perhaps show them what you wrote if it's hard to talk about it...

anyway, try to hang on, I know it's hard but hopefully with the meds and counselling you will start to feel better

[katiie]

hun, you can do it stay strong...it will be over i promise once you are on medication it takes most of these thoughts away, its hard and horrible and ur gran wants yoou to be happy and not worry about her, i know thats hard especially as u may love her so much...i really suggest you contact samaritans or something if you feel like you want to end it all, its not going to be helpful..theres no going back and need to think through what happens if it doesnt work? your parents will be worse than they already take my advice know from 1st hand, they will be checkin ur reciepts ur bags money and its like a prison and will make ur like worse, ur in a hole right? but theres only one way getting out...its to climb out where the light is..there isnt another way, but this proves you can do it, you can! and with you being here people understand you! please please email me on here or my email is katie-marie@live.co.uk

you are not alone, never, there is always someone out there who will make you feel one lil bit better than u do.

please stay strong and hang onto that strength you have, because i know you have it, x

[xxgeoxx]

I can relate. The only family I have ever had is my parents. I had no uncles, aunts, cousins (all locally), brothers, sisters, neices, nephews to speak of. Plus people dont respect me very much. I think it has to do with what I look like. People dont respect short people. At least in my world they dont.

Anyways on to you.....I have attemped suicide twice but it didnt work out the way I thought it would. A lot of people will give you the same old pathetic reasons not to kill yourself....Ive heard the same lame ones over and over. But this one always gets me thinking.

1st: if you kill yourself you know that you will eventually be punished. 2nd: if you kill yourself who's to say that you wont end up in an existance that is the same situation you are in now, IF not worse.

This always gets me thinking. Anyways I hope things will get better for you asap.

[cazzy]

i just found out that my gran has only 3 mounths with keemo left and a little bit longer without.

i try and avoied getting the feeling of killingm myself but its so hared thanks for all your suport and i wil take everthing anyone ses into acound thank you