Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Going away to Poland...forced visit to my abuser!

[Steel Maiden]

I'm going to Warsaw, Poland from the 22nd to the 29th of this month, so I wil not have internet access during those times.

My Mum is super-excited about it and I don't want to destroy it for her, that's why I'm not refusing to go.

My grandfather is a paedophile (but he's never been convicted). He sexually abused me as a kid.

Every time I have to go to his and his wife's flat in Warsaw, I feel like all of the cutlery there is covered in his "unclean germs" and for the same reason, I have great trouble using their bathrom too.

But I will be ok.

If he is a paedophile then surely he wouldn't be "interested" in me as I am 19 now? And besides, he has prostate cancer, so he is weak and I could easily overpower him now.

I'll be fine.

I'm just posting to say that I won't be around so don't worry about me.

If you really want to contact me, some RYL members have my mobile number so you can txt me, if that's what you really want. I don't *think* it will cost you any extra to txt me in Poland (it doesn't cost me extra when I txt my Dad when he's on business trips in the Middle East).

Ok thanks guys.

I will be posting on RYL until the 21st, the day before I leave.

Then I will be gone to the wolves (or wolf singular in this case).

Best wishes,
Olympia.

[brokendancer]

good luck x

[ksdfjhlksajf]

Good luck.

Be careful and take care of yourself *hugs*

Amy

[xbeckyx]

Just seen this. Good luck hun and you know you can text me anytime if things get rough okay?
x

[Wonderland.]

You are really brave hun, hope you manage to have a nice time if you can.

Take care.
Amy x

[trina1723]

good luck, i hope it isnt too bad for you.
try and have some fun!
xxx

[Steel Maiden]

Thanks guys. It won't be too bad. My Mum says that she and I will go out loads and go to lots of museums etc...I hope they're in English lol because I can say dowizenia and count to ten, and that's about it lol. I don't want to be relying on my Mum to translate everything for me.

My grandparents can't walk more than a couple of miles, so my Mum and I (who like walking all day around places) will probably be by ourselves quite a lot.

Becky, I'll txt if things get rough. Money won't be an issue. I may have to MMS you instead of txting because its cheaper (20p for an MMS whereas 40p for a txt).

Thanks all.

I will be posting on RYL in general up until the 21st as I said.

[helpmefeel18]

good luck, be strong. ***hugs***

[Steel Maiden]

Thanks so much Help Me Feel.

I will attempt to get internet access in Poland. I will have my laptop but know nothing about Polish WiFi lol.

[one lie at a time]

Good luck. I hope everything goes well and you have some fun.
You are selfless, brave, and strong for going, but don't forget to take care of you.
xx

[Detour. Derail]

Good luck, take care of yourself
xxx

[extreme turbulance]

Good luck and I hope everything is Ok!

You are very brave and very strong for facing your demons like this, not many people would be able to!

*hugs*

[Damnation.]

As others have said, I hope it all goes okay for you. See you when you get back *safe hugs*

[Steel Maiden]

Thank you so much guys! You are all wonderful. I don't normally look people in the face, so I should be able to avoid looking at his f*ck ugly piece of sh*t face because that would trigger me. Ugh just the thought of him makes me want to vomit.

I'll be ok though. My Mum will be there. She'll take me out loads. I'll have my laptop.

Thanks for the hugs!

[Runa]

Good luck and take care x

[sherlock holmes]

Good luck, I hope it goes okay.

[Danny R]

Goodluck, take care of yourself and i hope all goes well.

[justapuppetonastring]

Hope it goes okay Oly, miss you xx

good luck. :) you're really brave. i'm sure it'll work out.

[Breeze]

Hope it goes OK and you and your Mum get out and about lots.
Stay strong Oly :)