Its a long story really but last week i was finally put in touch with the mental health services, i saw a psyc and the CPN and they asked me to refer myself to these services.
So away i go, contact these services who tell me it will be about 6 weeks til i have an appointment with them, ok fair enough, go to my appointment witht eh CPN today and she tells me a. the GP (who had emailed and checked with the consultanT) shouldn't give 'people with my problems' meds and b. apparently thats it, the CPN and psyc team arent going to see me again, im back on my own until these services contact me to do an assessment in 6 weeks to see if im appropriate for them. She's told me i shouldnt have meds to cope with my meltdowns that i should stay at work and try to organise a way to cope because again its best for 'people with my problems' .
I just felt so relieves last week when they finally got me to the MHS but now they have dumped me again, im not sure i can be bothered with it, i feel like just ignoring it all and going back to what i used to be like alone and coping on my own.
I was soo annoyed and fed up that when i got home i took a handful of various pills and have slept ever since, i'd quite like to go back to bed now but i know my man will be home soon, and then i wont sleep tonight (which is an issue at the best of times).
Just, what is the point?
Two 20 minute meetings and these people seem to have labelled me and think they know me, i wish i could be normal
Last edited by ferretmonster : 16-04-2009 at 06:18 PM.
Reason: just adding more
I know it feels as though you have been labelled and passed on but can you wait and see whether this service will take you on and help you? Do you know what support they can provide for you? If they don't take you on, maybe you could then get your gp to refer you back to the cmht. It might be that this service you are going to be assessed by will provide similar support to a cmht.
*hugs*
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
That, and it is worth knowing that it is not up to a CPN to decide whether or not you need medicine, so they should not be saying that to you. It is up to your GP and a psychiatrist.
Sorry.. not in good headspace right now and can't think of any more to say, but will keep an eye on this thread... hugs.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
They haven't specifically said a label but the services they have forwarded me to are for PD and i suspect because of my mood swings and SH they have decided i am BPD.
I don't really understand the services to behonest they are something to do with a therapy to teach me 'coping' techniques to learn how to change my behaviours i think, group stuff other than that i don't really know.
Only a psychiatrist can decide if you have BPD, although it tends to be called emotionally unstable PD now.
It sounds like the CPN was just an initial point of contact and she is referring you what she feels is the appropriate area.
I was taken off ADs, as they don't make any difference. Talk to your GP about it. They know you better.
She is right that it is about learning coping mechanisms.
I see a clinical psychologist and his aim is to help me to do this. He is also helping me go through the issues that made me feel like this in the first place.
He always encourages me to stay at work, and I know that he is right. The routine helps and I actually like what I do. If I didn't work, I know I would get worse.
Hate to say it but i know of a friend who has BPD who finds she gets the same kind of treatment from MH services as if she's a "lost cause". i don't know if its just ignorance on their part and sorry i dont have anything useful to add, but you're not on your own hun *hugs*
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Its not that I want to stop work, in fact so far I've been desperately hanging on to stay working but now my 2 weeks easter hols are over I'm startign to wonder if I will be like i was before the holiday, i was struggling so much to cope and things at work are about to get really busy, anyway it doesnt matter I've decided to see how things go and hope for the best.
I don't know what the services ive been refered to are, basically i have to wait and see them for assessment first to see if im suitable, i don't know i just felt really rubbish about that whole thing, im ok now, im just going to see what happens but tbh im not bothered anymore.
Hey im sorry that this has happened and i can also understand you feeling let down and disheartened by what has happened with mental health and also that you may well be really struggling with work on top of your other problems.It is a shame the CPN/mental health werent willing to continue seeing you and offering support at least until you are seen by the other service.But i hope the assessment hope goes well and that something positive comes from it all.Good luck and please try and stay safe.Also i know it may not be much use some of the time but please remember we are here for you too!
Last edited by Sleepless123 : 19-04-2009 at 06:40 PM.
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i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
Its ok.You dont need to thank me.Its what we are here for and i dont know exactly what your going through but i know things can get real tough especially when you have no/very little support or have your hopes dashed like this.i hope the assessment goes well and feel free to PM me anytime too.Stay safe.*Hug*.
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
