What should I do?

Ajc · 14-07-2007, 12:33 PM

Ever since year 5 I have felt quite down like nothing I ever do is right. I always feel worthless nothing I do is ever right. I have had dreams about killing myself someone killing me and I constantly feel like im better off dead. I thing is it’s not a dream it’s like a thought because im always awake and it last for 4 hours or so. People have told me that I am becoming really slow now. My thought like take over all the time so if im like sitting down, watching TV listen to music or stuff like that its like im in a battle with myself, if that makes sense. I can never stop it. . It’s like the though/dream is like im living it right there. Im not on the sideline im there so it really upsets me. I can never ever sit still I have to get up and move. If im listen to music or stuff like that its like im in a battle with myself, if that makes sense. I can never stop it. Its like the though/dream is like im living it right there. Im not on the sideline im there so it really upsets me. Oh yeah I can never ever sit still I have to get up and move. If im listen to music I cant sit on my bed I get up and walk up and down my room . I jst cant sit still.

Bleeding Angel · 14-07-2007, 02:52 PM

The first thing i suggst it that you go to your GP and get help with this if you havent already?

If you have a mental illness its important to get the right help and treatment for it.

perfection is a flaw · 14-07-2007, 03:58 PM

aw *hugs* that doesnt sound too nice.
bleeding angel is right, you need to make an appointment with your gp hun. maybe you could print off your post and show her/him it?

theoretical · 15-07-2007, 03:32 AM

I think I know how you are feeling. It's like you are stuck in your head with no way out, and there is so much going on you're completely lost but at the same time you're in the center of everything. Sometimes it gets so bad I find myself crying out and holding my head so tightly it hurts.
Seriously, go talk to someone;anyone. Just tell someone who can help you how much pain you're in, and ask them to make arrangements for you to see a doctor. It may seem like a lot at first, but you can do it.