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Rant - getting kicked out for depression [triggering?]
Okay, so the deal is that Thursday after my mom picked me up from High School, and I had gotten into a big fight with my girlfriend, my mother started ranting about my father; who had left her a month back, and she wasn't happy about it. I got fed up, because I love my dad, and I hate to hear that god forsaken woman say anything bad about him. I yelled at her, and started balling. My mom didn't notice, and got me something to eat and kept ranting until we got home, and I yelled at her more, and fell to the ground. She tried to touch me and I slapped her hand away yelling more, before running into my room.
After two hours of crying on my bed and not moving, I couldn't fight the urges and started to bite my tongue and clawing my arms; with no finger nails. It wasn't helping me, and I was about to get out my lighter to burn myself, or my straightener. She came in and was like "If you don't like this, get the fuck out. I don't care what you or your fucking father do." I screamed at her that she shouldn't be triggering my depression because one day she was gonna lose me for real, and she knows it. This had happened before.
She tried to understand what I was going through, only to come back after my dad called and chewed her out, because I texted him and told him what she was doing. And she told me to get the fuck out that my father was coming to get me. This was the night before my big field trip to new orleans and she didn't give a shit, and she knew my dad was out of town and couldn't get me.
So I got kicked out... and I think the only reason is because I was diagnosed with depression. My mom doesn't care at all.
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