Triggering (Suicide) - is this ok to give to counsellor?

[trina1723]

sorry about the amount i have been posting.
i have an appointment tomorrow morning, and i was wondering if this sounds ok to give to her?



I am writing this because as you know I find it really really hard to talk out loud.

The thing is I don't feel safe any more, im not in control, the voice is. And I know you think she is in my head but she isnt, she is real, its just no one else can hear her but she is real I swear she is.
Every night this week I have been closer and closer to giving in to her and just doing what she says and I dont know how much longer I can fight her.
I dont want to do anything stupid, I want to get better, but I dont feel in control any more and im petrified.
I dont feel strong, I feel exhausted and weak, I spend every waking hour trying to fight her and ignore them and I can hardly sleep because they wont let me.
Its not just the voice, there is this man and he follows me, he just watches me and it creeps me out.
And when I try to sleep there are spirits in my room and they wont leave me alone.
I just dont know what to do.
And I dont see how anyone can help me because how is anyone gunna get rid of them? They are real and no one else can see or hear them so how can anything change.
I know its all down to me but im stuck.
I feel so hopeless and useless
and Im really scared and I dont know how to do this anymore.



thanks =]

[Popple]

I think it is good that you can explain how you feel to her so I hope you do give it to her.
Good luck and take care
x

[trina1723]

thanks =]
xxx

[guiltyinnocence]

hey, just wondering how it went with your counsellor?
xxxx

[jen-x]

Hope it went ok?

Jen xx

[lozza]

I hope it went ok and you were able to show her what you wrote.
Thinking of you.

Lozza. xxx

[Katiee]

Hunni, that's really good. I hope you did give it to your counsellor. xo.

[trina1723]

i didnt manage to give it to her =[.
but i have another appointment tomorrow and im going to try my hardest to.
i feel so crap atm and unsafe and i had a really bad night on monday night and it upset my mum so much but i cant help it and ugh. i hate it. but yeah im gunna try give it to her and see what she suggests.
=]xxx

[l'il esky]

i think this is perfect trine,good luck in giving it to her i will be on me mobile if you need me :)

love you xx

[trina1723]

thanks lovely
xxx

[l'il esky]

how'd it go sweetie?? i hope you managed to give the letter to jo

speak to you later?? xx

[trina1723]

i gave it to her, and then saw a psychiatrist and she gave me some meds. and im like falling asleep now cuz of them lol. :p
ill tell you about it on msn lol
xxxxx

[l'il esky]

well done baby, i know how hard that would have been.
and meds...how do you feel about this? glad you only feel sleepy and there are no other side effects :)
i am soooooooo proud of you sweetie, and im so pleased they are actually helping and listening to you

love you xxxx

[xbeckyx]

Well done for giving her it :)