Triggering (SI/ED) - All falling apart.

rustedchains · 04-04-2009, 05:52 PM

Everything is crashing, crashing, crashing. I can't hold it together at all.

I don't know how I'm going to make it through this month OR next month.

I have to repeat a class this summer. I'm not sure how much that is or if there is anyway I can get aid to help me with it.

I have to pay my mother 150 dollars in May.

I have to pay for choir tour in May, possibly before I can register for fall classes.

I have to pay a 75 dollar deposit for summer housing and 352 for the first month's rent in May.

I have a 10 dollar credit card bill.

I have to put at least 10 dollars on my cell phone.

I have to get my medications and pay for my doctors.

I have my student loans.

I have so much I need to do and so much I have to pay and I only get 679 a month. There's no way I can make all the ends meet.

So what's the first thing I cut out of my budget? Food. It's the first thing to go. Second thing? My medications. Third thing? I don't know what the third thing would be.

Self injury just sounds... appealing. I just don't know how I'm going to make eveything come together and I'm scared.

I.Heart.And · 05-04-2009, 09:31 PM

Obviously food isn't the first thing you cut out of your budget.
You also need your medication.
Choir tour though? Not such a necessity, also can you not explain to your mother that you are short at the moment and ask that you pay her back in installments instead.
I know financial difficulty can be scary but harming yourself over it will get you nowhere.

Katiee · 06-04-2009, 01:10 AM

Hun, I'm sorry you're in a difficult situation.
Though you do need food and your meds. Like said, maybe try explaining to your mom that you're having difficulty at the moment? xo.

trina1723 · 06-04-2009, 10:18 PM

*hugs* sorry no advise just wanted to give hugs.
xxx

rustedchains · 07-04-2009, 03:40 AM

Actually, choir tour is because I'll fail the class and get put on probation if I don't go. Absolutely not an option.

I cannot contact my mother as I no longer have contact with her due to her being toxic. We do not speak at all anymore and the money will be solely mine next month.