Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - could this be rape? *mentions drugs*

[*..life in pain..*]

When i was in hospital, a guy gave me some pills, i think they were very strong for sleep pills, and i don't remember anything, but you can imagine what he did. but i don't think its rape, because i continued to be with him, not because i couldn't break up, but because i was addicted to drugs and he had said he would give me whenever i wanted. could this be rape, since we then, i mean after that, we became boyfriend girlfriend? i can't believe im so stupid.

after that, i went again with him, again without protection, so the first isn't considered rape, because the second time, i wanted it and i did it. sorry i shouldn't have posted this. im just wondering.

[Popple]

Each individual time is different if you didn't want it the first time, said no or were incapable of saying no because of the pills then yes it is rape even if you did it again with consent.
Don't be sorry for posting you have done nothing wrong.
Does anyone know about this?
Take care
x

[*..life in pain..*]

they know, but no one can do anything.

[bobbiwibble]

a surprisingly large number of rape victims get together with their abuser. It can be a way of coping with confusing feelings, or your mind revolting against what happened to you, and deciding to believe that it was a part of it.
Nobody who rapes you could ever truly care about you, and that was cold, calculating, and taking advantage of your addiction. sorry but I think you should leave him honey. You don't need a ****ed-up, cruel bully like that in your life - you are so much bigger than that!!
Sorry to sound preachy :( I just already hate this guy on your behalf.

xxxbobbib

[*..life in pain..*]

thanks. im not with him anymore. i was strong enough to say no to drugs and him.

[Popple]

Thats really good! Well done you should be proud of yourself
x