Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Goodbye's on the tip of my tounge.
Argh. I feel ####, I honestly do. Everything's ####ed up.
I try my hardest to be positive and it's get ####ing thrown back in my face.
If I had the chance right now I'd ####ing attempt suicide again.
I want to cut so badly. I've had the urge for nearly 72 hours with hardly any breaks from it. I'm on my 68th days free, I'm struggling. I've been missing my meds on purpose, how ####ed up is that?
My self-harm levels would go through the roof if I decided to harm right now.
I'm not sure I want to do this anymore, why am I doing it anyway?
hey hun
i know its hard but i believe youve told me to hang in there ao you have to do.
and i know that may sound a little mean but no one wants to have to be saying goodbye to you, so you are not allowed to try and kill yourself and yes i used the word try which also means you are not allowed to succeed in it.
i hope you start to feel better soon
and if you ever need to talk then you feel free me
just try and hang in there
xx
im so sorry you aren't feeling well. i know the feeling. i want to cut and die too, but im trying so hard not to, and so can you. you are strong, trust me. you have helped so many people here, including me, so listen to us and don't do anything. please.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
*hugs*
sorry to hear your having such a difficult time right now.
i understand how your feeling but you have to hang on and get through this.
i can see from the fact you are 68 days free that you are incredibly strong.
i have seen you around and you are such a kind lovely person, and you can and will get through this.
if you want to talk then feel free to pm me
xxx
'the pain you feel is real,
you're not asleep,
but its a nightmare,
but you cant wake up anytime.'
*Cuddles you* Im sorry your struggling sweety. 68 days is fantastic!! Well done!! Im so proud of you :) I know its hard but please dont attempt suicide it wont help or make things better and there are lots of people who really care about you who would be very upset if anything bad happened to you. Do you know what it is thats making you want to harm yourself so much?
If im correct i remember you saying that you have proffessional support, have you spoken to your therapist/counsellor about how much your struggling and they way your feeling? Its important that you do because if you dont she/he cant help you as they will assume your ok when your not. Your a great person and very supportive, dont give up, keep fighting, your doing so well. Please dont be hard on yourself, i do know how difficult it is but you will get through this. Im here for you. Stay safe.
sorry your feeling this way. i often feel the same. distraction is the only thing i can think of. don't watch anything depressing or listen to anything depressing as your fragile and i don't want you to do anything silly or that your regret x
