Over the last few years I have started drinking alot. Not all day and night but mainly at night times and once I get to a certain point I start arguing with my husband. We have got into some really bad fights but now he said he has had enough and left me. I dont know what I am meant to do. I drink to block things that have happened to me out and when we have fort in the past I have promised to get help but after a couple of days the drink calls out to me and I go back to the way I was.
Now he said he doesnt want anything to do with me and that he cant live with someone like me. And what do I do? Today I got so upset because he said he wants me to be the happy person that I am, so took a load of my anti depressents and now I have just opened a bottle of wine.
Whats the point?! I dont know anymore. I wish I could stop this. I wish I could change and not be this person anymore but it seems easier to give up, then wait around and have to tell everyone whats really going on.
I'm lost.
