Scared...

[*Helpless.Suicidal*]

I am so scared.
I have to spend 5 days with my Youth Group next week.
It's not that i'm scared of leaving home,
I'm scared because i dont have anybody.
I am a newbie to the Youth Group and I dont have a click.
My sister is the only person that I'm close with in the Youth Group.
But my sister is 4 years older than me, and wants nothing to do with me.
They all think of me as the quiet emo kid, but I'm really not.
When i'm with my friends, I am funny and just plain crazy.
I want to show them that, but I dont feel comfortable enough.
I have to drive 8 hours in a van full of people that i dont know that well.
There are about 50 people going, and I barely know half of them.
I talk to about a quarter of them.
I am also worried about me being faithful.
I just got back with my ex-gf, but I always tend to get with people on our overnights.
Every overnight i went to at my church, I hooked up with someone.
I just got back with my ex, and i dont want to do that to her.
She said its okay, but I just feel bad.
I am leaving in 2 days, and I am stressed to the max,
worrying about it.
I am about to go crazzzzy!

[adamcieslicki]

Hey relax, its a great opportunity to show your real self there, meet the people who you dont talk to, and most of all to change their opinion of you. You are going there for 5 days right? SO you have 2 options, you either try and get to know the people, maybe have a really great time and change a lot of opinions about you, OR you can sit and mope around, not change any opinions, reaffirm many and have a really cr*p time, its your choice.

[princesskaytie-leigh]

You have a whole five days to make friends with people, it'll be fine,

[crazykat]

I know its hard but try not to stress too much. Often theese camps or whatever you call them cause people to actually make more friends and become closer to people because you are spending so much time with it. Just go there and enjoy yourself, the five days will go quicker than you thoght they would. HAVE FUN