what the fuck is going on in my head? I am hijacking my own posts I know but i am really going oput of my head here, the temptation is so great , i need help ple3ase will anyone help, if i hadnt had a drink i would go up there now and prove my point, see it again for myself, then that would be it, that would be the finger on the trigger, she has always been the one to gib=ve me the hypothetical gun, and the one who pushed me to put my finger on the trigger, I have been the one to pull the trigger in the past, I have got the hypothetical gun, and the finger is ready, now if i go home the home which i had left, and find him there, I dont want to believe what i am thinking about but i know it is true, no hope means no life
i am loosing hope in her, if on my way to work tomorrow, if i go in, i see a car in my drive then that will be it, i will surely do it, I am not strong enough to go on any more all my fight has gone,I cant stop crying. i am having a nervous breakdown, I WILL NOT LET HER FUCKIN WIN she will not kill me
she can kill my soul shatter my dreams but she will not kill me... only I can do that I am so desperae tonight can anyone please help
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