Triggering (SI/OD) - life is pointless now!

don't no where to start like........ i know i don't deserve ur help or advice for being so weak and pathetic!!!

it all started on sunday, i was feeling really low and had made plans to kill my self,but i think i only ended up cutting which wasn't bad but then the following night i took an OD and was admitted to hospital to have parvolax through an IV drip to stop the effetcs! got out last night but im still feeling like i want to die! which i do! i have somebut i don't want to let the crisis team down, i told them i wouldn't take any!!

im edging closer to taking some tho! i don't know what to do!! Argh!!

[guiltyinnocence]

*hugs*
do you want to talk about why you wanna take them?
i understand how hard the urges can get, but you can beat them
can you ring the crisis team or anything?
im only a pm away if you want someone to talk to
keep yourself safe
xxxx

[Cazki]

*Hugs* Im sorry that your feeling so low. Do you know what it is thats casuing you to feel so low? Are you able to talk to us about whats happening for you? Please dont od, its not worth it oding is very dangerous and can cause severe damage. Please get rid of the pills you dont need them. Your not weak and pathetic at all. Please dont put yourself down, be gentle with yourself.

Oding wont make things better. Im sorry your having such a difficult time, you dont deserve this. Dont give up you can get through this. Keep fighting. Try to keep yourself distracted as much as you can. Im here for you, i care about you but i dont want to see you getting hurt. Please dont od. Keep afe.

Take care best wishes Ian

[Sometimes Crazy]

I'm really proud of you for trying to fight the urges as much as you are already. I know how desperate you can feel, and it can feel impossible to fight, but you are and that's so important. Just making this thread and reaching out for help is progress.

Did anything in particular happen to make you feel low? What's been on your mind lately?

It sounds like it would be a good idea to ring your crisis team and see if you can get an appointment with someone, at the very least. Maybe plan little things out for during the day that you can manage and will keep you distracted?

Keep talking, we're all here for you. Take care.

[Katiee]

I can understand how you're feeling, hun.
You do deserve help and advice and you're not pathetic or weak.
You can beat these urges, as already said. Can you talk to someone about how you're feeling? Take care, we're always here xo.

how can i keep safe when i know they r there and i feel so shitty!.... the only thing playing on my mind about taking them is that i only came out of hosp on wednesday night!

the crisis team are supposed to be ringing me tomorrow but they don't really help much!