Triggering (SI/Suicide) - argh why me, what did i do wrong...hugs pleassee

[brokendancer]

i havent rely posted here b4 and please

ignpre any typos because im shaking a little so its making it hard to type...ill try and correct them but... :S


i am fed up with this, i woke up at 4 am this mopreing, last night i just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up. i tried to talk t my psyc about it but she didnt rely want to know.

ive not long been pulled of a car park roof by my best mate i dont know what to do now. i ahvennt SH'd in a week coz im being watched neerly all the time, havent got time to do ti

and school ahve started searcching me for blades every day


i dotn know what to do i just want to curl up and die. im not worth anything, everyone just findas me annoying anyway. cba anymore

the ED is geting em down too, havent stopped eating in a few weeks, just eationg and purging constantly

hugs please...any advice...words of wisdom



sory it was a bit of a rant but...oh well

[Horizon]

I'm sorry things are so difficult right now. It seems like you really need professional support, and if your psyc doesn't want to hear about it as you said, then maybe try finding a different one?

And you are worth something, even if you don't see it right now.
Please keep posting, and stay safe.

-Megan

[Katiee]

Hi,
I'm sorry to hear things are bad for you right now, sweet.
*HUGS*. If your psych won't listen, then please find someone who will. Maybe a counsellor or therapist? Well done on not self-harming for a week - that's really good. :) Keep fighting hun. Try and find distraction to keep you busy and take your mind off everything for a while. xo.

[brokendancer]

my psyc is basically teh most sinior person at my camhs unit...knowone else has the experence to "deal with" my case. i went to her mid jan after talking an overdose and she didnt do anything, didnt even encorage me to get checked by a doc. she obv wants me dead so she doesnt have me taking up her precious 3 day a week job time.

im waiting on a referal to somewere ina neerby town, but i cant wait any longer. i just want to curl up right here with my dog and not wake up still....no1 cares anyway, im just soem sado who ppl can laugh at and mock for being the fat kid, the emo kid, the freak
coz thats what i am, a fat emo freak. why would anyone want me around



sorry im ranting again...

[gotta-breathe]

*hugs*

please dont call yourself names hun. you arent any of those things. im so sorry things are so hard for you right now.

i agree, you should find someone who will listen to you and who can help you through this.
take care. and if you ever need anything let me know.