Triggering (SI/Suicide) - I Fucking Quit Life. God Dammit.

[nobody.but.me.]

I CAN'T FUCKING DO IT. I QUIT GOD DAMMIT.
IT NEVER GETS BETTER. I AM SICK OF IT.
DON'T FUCKING TELL ME IT WILL GET BETTER.
BECAUSE IT WON'T. AND WE ALL KNOW IT.
SO DON'T FUCKING TELL ME IT WILL.
I CAN'T STAND IT. I WILL CUT MYSELF TIL I DIE.
OR GO DRINK SOME STUFF. OR FLING MYSELF INTO THE ROAD.
I WISH I COULD DO IT.
.....
maybe i can.
maybe i will.
i've never been so low.
even when i basically cut my arm off.
tick tock tick tock.
im a time bomb.
set to go off..
right about now.
i fucking quit.
i quit this shit.
i quit this fucking shit.
there's no one i can turn to.
except my razor blades..
WHICH I JUST MIGHT.
but all the cuts in the world can't kill me
cause i've tried
and i will keep on trying..
hmm. let's hope it works.
i'll show them all.

[Cazki]

*Hugs* Please dont end your life. You can get through this, suicide isnt the answer. Do you have any support? Is there anyone you can talk to about how your feeling? What is it that you cant cope with? Whats making you want to end your life? Whats going on for you? Can you talk to us about things? There are a lot of people who care about you and they would be very upset if anything happened to you.

I understand that when your feeling very low that it feels as if no one cares about you but trust me there are lots of people thast care about you. Please get support you sound incredibly unsafe and i dont want to see you get hurt in any way. I also advise you to go to A&E due to the way your feeling so that you can get the support you need. Please stay safe. Please put your tools somewhere that you cant see them so that your not tempted to harm yourself.

Take care best wishes Ian

[Distortion.]

*huggles tight*
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way...
I don't have much to say, I'm sorry ): the words won't come to me, but please, stay safe? Please? People care very much about you, and would be devastated if you hurt yourself. Stay strong x

[nobody.but.me.]

I CAN'T GET THROUGH THIS. NO ONE CAN HELP ME. god i promised i'd call 911.. or tell my parents.. i can't i can't do it i cna't i have to leave now

[squirrelspit]

You need to calm down first love, you'll never make any rational decisions whilst youre in this state.
I know you said people shouldnt say it, but things may just get better. You dont know that they wont, same as i dont know if they will.

You really really need to call someone or talk to someone and keep yourself safe.

[Katiee]

Hun,
I know you're feeling so so low right now. *HUGS*
Please, please don't end your life. You will get through this. I know you say you can't talk to anyone, but if you're gonna get the help and support you need than you're gonna have to. Please tell someone. Try and distractions, if possible. Take care. xo.

[squirrelspit]

How are you feeling today love?

[nobody.but.me.]

um idk. last night i did end up calling a friend.. after i wrote my suicide note. she told her mom who called my parents. we sat there for like 10 minutes deciding whether i should be sent to a hospital or not. i convinced them i was okay. even though im not. things will prob get better for like a day.. like they do most of the time.. and then go back. but idk how i feel right now.

[Shatterproof]

*Hugs*

We're all here for you hun, PM me anytime OK? xx

[nobody.but.me.]

yeah and it helps, but unfortunately you guys aren't here every day.