Triggering (SI/Abuse) - I am just an "IT"

[secret scars]

everytime i try to do the right thing or just breath the wrong way he starts in. my step dad screams at me non-stop calling a slu* and other nasty things. sometimes he even throws things at me. he even once locked me out in the middle of winter without a jacket or shoes. i recently had the chance to leave but i wont leave my brother alone in this house. when i am not around he starts on my brother. he is 13. so i stay here and cut to stop the pain. cutting is the only thing in my life that i have controll of. i feel like i am all alone.

[ghosts in the machine]

hey there

I'm sorry things are so bad for you
Is there anyone you can tell, to make it stop? No one should have to go through that. Ever.
You sound like you're really caring - staying for your brother. Certainly not the things he calls you.

*hugs*
You're not alone sweetie
xxx

[Sarah]

Hey
you should tell someone who can stop this, for both you and your brother. You both deserve much better :( neither of you have dont anything wrong, or anything to deserve this...

i hope things get better for you soon. pm me if you want x

[HazardxToxMyselfx3]

Hey hun
=[
I hope you're all right.
*hugs hugs hugs*
I'm here
xNicole

[bloodletting]

*hugs* sweetie you shouldnt have to put up with that kind of abuse in your own home. as other people said maybe it's time to tell someone...do you have a good relationship with your mum? maybe you could tell her how he treats you and your brother.
or someone else you trust, another relative or teacher?
you have the right to feel safe and not be hurt or put down, you deserve more and he has no right.
xoxoxox

[Jlynn]

hi
*hugs hugs hugs*
Im in the same place to I too have a jerk step dad, I cut too, it you want to talk just pm me :) im here for you.

[shadow in the background]

I agree with everyone who says you need to tell someone. It needs to stop. You and your brother do not deserve it. You are a very strong person, I know you will have the strength to tell someone. I hope so much the situation can become better for you both.

sitb xxxx

[Chrissyann]

No-one deserves to be treated the way your step dad is treating you and your brother. He needs to know it's wrong, and he needs to be stopped. Telling someone is a hard step to make, but will be worthwhile if it means life getting better for both you and your brother.

Take care hun
*hugs*
Chrissy
xxx

[foxfly]

If you can, I think you should tell someone you trust. You could even write them a letter if you can't face saying the words aloud. No one should have to go through this, honey. I can't imagine how hard this is. Since you look after your brother so well, I know you must be a caring person, and you are definately not an "it". I really hope you get some help. I'm so sorry this is happening to you.