I can't do this. I can't deal with this. Why did it have to happen? Am I not allowed happiness? This could've been my time, OUR time. Why now?...... It wasn't meant to be like this. I've lost the only good thing that's ever happened to me. The only person I've ever needed, wanted, loved. How am I supposed to carry on now?
hi i am not sure if you mean somebody you care about has died or whether you mean they have left you.
I no that when you are close to someone and they leave everything can seem impossible to deal with and pointless but you can get through this even if it does not feel like it right now.
My boyfriend's just broken up with me, but not because anything's wrong with the relationship... it's to spare me having to wait for him. A relative of his is dying of cancer, so he's leaving the country to go and be with him in his last days. Then when he comes back he's going off to the navy/army...whatever, & plans to go off to Afghanistan to be on the front line. He doesn't want me to put my life on hold for him. And because of this relative he's distancing himself from everyone & can't handle the emotional closeness.
But he doesn't understand that I've been SO depressed for the last 8 years or so... he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. And I know people will say 'there'll be other guys, you'll be happy again' But how I feel right now, I seriously don't believe that. He was the one. We were both so so happy together. We'd barely had our time, and then this has to go & happen.
He was the light at the end of the tunnel. He was my hope... my everything. Now I've got nothing.
Hello, sweetie.
I know that the last thing you probably wanna hear is "I know how you feel", but I might just a little bit. About two months ago, the man that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with broke up with me because he thought I "deserved better" and didn't understand that I just wanted to be with him.
Everyone kept telling me that eventually I'd be able to move on and that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" but I just kept telling them that they couldn't possibly understand how much pain I was in and that there was no way that it would ever ever ever get better.
But slowly, I'm finding out that they're right. The pain will never fully go away, but with time it will begin to fade and you'll eventually be able to live your life without it getting in the way. I know it's overwhelming, but all I can say is please please please just hold on and believe me when I promise you that eventually, you will start to feel better <3
Becky xoxoxox
"Be the change you want to see in the world."
[Gandhi]
I can't say anything that will make you feel any better, but I am always here if you want to talk.
As cliched and patronising as it sounds, try and spend time just being really nice to yourself - watch a good film, listen to music, just do things you really enjoy. It won't make everything better, but it might help just a little bit.
I can't say much because I've not been in your situation. Fight for him tooth and nail sweetie. I can honestly say that I've tried so many times to break up with people to protect them from me. Fight with everything in your power.
It wasn't meant to be like this. I've lost the only good thing that's ever happened to me. The only person I've ever needed, wanted, loved. How am I supposed to carry on now?
