Triggering (SI/Suicide) - help

Chiasma · 23-03-2009, 10:12 PM

Ive gone crazy, totally jcat. icant cope itstoo much.
My friends their suffering and i cant help
Im trying so hard but i cant help.
im hearing things, seeing things.
its them or me its them or me its them or me itsthjem orme
I cant cope
its too much
Nobody cares what you thinK!
shut the fuck up!
You dont matter
Fail
Radial artery, so eays, so obvious easy .
I wish i had one scar icould be proud of, their pathetic, all so shoddy.
never got stitcches for one
I wish i had one that i could enjoy.
One last one.
I cant cope, too much, am going to fail. gotta go
meds dont work, pthetic low dose.
Argth my noses itches
Shit i cant stop rocking back and forand. only crazy people do thjat.
may hand its covered in the letters the owrs, they hate mre
FUCKING COWARD

Popple · 23-03-2009, 10:16 PM

Callum has something happened to make you feel like this?
If you are going to seriously hurt yourself or try and kill yourself you need to tell someone who can keep you safe or go to a&e.
You don't have to do this, you can get through it
Take care
x

Distortion. · 23-03-2009, 10:18 PM

Callum, people care about you. Just dont.

Chiasma · 23-03-2009, 10:34 PM

Its not just me its you. Im going to kill you, or somone, anyone.I dont care. I need to kill and i need to die.

grizzlybear · 23-03-2009, 10:39 PM

hi i think that you should try to go to a&e and talk to someone if you feel you are going to hurt yourself or someone else.

do you have a friend or family member you could stay with right now until you are feeling safer?

Chiasma · 23-03-2009, 10:41 PM

no i cant ell people. they'll stop me

grizzlybear · 23-03-2009, 10:52 PM

ok well try to distract yourself as best you can and keep talking to us

PrincessVegeta_x · 23-03-2009, 10:53 PM

Callum, maybe the fact that people will stop you is a good thing. One day, everything will be better and you'll be glad that you're alive. Think about that when you feel bad.
x

Chiasma · 23-03-2009, 10:57 PM

i dont want things to be better i want things to stop.

Katiee · 24-03-2009, 02:57 AM

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. Please talk to someone if you feel unsafe. *HUGS* Take care, we're always here for you. xo.

Bellatrix · 24-03-2009, 05:55 PM

How are you today love?

shieldworld · 24-03-2009, 06:40 PM

Callum, listen ok. If you tell people, they can help. They can help stop the voices and the visions, they can help you stop seeing things.

What meds are you on? Maybe you could ask the doctors to change your meds if they're not working.