Triggering (SI) - Drained of just about everything

[matty_b]

Rite now my life is ridiculously difficult. I am trying so hard to do well at uni, to earn enough money for rent, and I'm not managing. I've hardly seen my friends because we are doing different courses and at different campuses, and I miss them!

I hate living where I live, I want to move but jsut can't rite now, and whenever i do stuff it all seems wrong, like something vital is missing, something that should be there but just isnt, as if part of me has gradually been dying and has finally died.

I want to get better, to feel happy, even half of the time, if i were happy half of the time rite now id love it. I hide how upset and unhappy i ma from everyone, even my closest friends and family, people think i laugh and joke sincerely but most of teh tiem its a front, a big facade to the world to say hi everyone, i'm ok, i dont hurt myself and i dont dread every day and the challenges im going to be thrown, but i do. I do hate life, i do hurt myslef, and i do dread the next day, becasue things only get worse at the moment and if today was shit then how bad is tomorrow going to be??

[grizzlybear]

hi sorry to hear you are feeling so bad, maybe you could try and tell your closest friends how you are feeling. i am sure they would not want you to be unhappy and would want to help.

it is hard putting on a front all the time and pretending your alright it wears you out. it would probably feel like a weight had been lifted off you if ,you were to share your problems with someone you trust.

sometimes we can't sort out our problems alone and we need a little help there is nothing wrong with that in fact its quite normal.

feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

[Katiee]

Hii,
I'm sorry to hear you're having a difficult time right now. *HUGS*
I think you should talk to someone and maybe get some professional support. Could you maybe go to the doctors and ask for counselling? xo.