Triggering (SI) - *sighs*

gotta-breathe · 22-03-2009, 05:54 AM

sorry ive been posting so much lately. Y'all dont have to answer, i just need to get something out there.

no one will listen to me anymore then my friends do anyways. guess ive just gotten used to not being heard. its not gonna change anytime soon.

trying not to feel empty enough to cut. i want to. so bad. but ive already cut twice this week and i shouldnt do anymore, cause if i do my mom will notice and that will be shit.

alone. broken. and so tired of this all.
maybe ill get the knife out after all.

on second thought, dont bother answering. i know i dont exist anyways.

jesslove · 22-03-2009, 08:25 AM

Wow, I'm so sorry you're feeling so awful. I think I've been where you are now and i know how unbearable it all is.
Keep fighting mate.
Everyone deserves to be listened to, to be heard. Noone can do life alone and succeed in happiness, we were made to do life with people, so that's what were here for, to help you and listen to you. Do you have a therapist of some sort? maybe it'd help, sounds like you have pretty bad self esteem and I'm sure youre an amazing person.

You exist, You're alive

PM me anytime, sorry I havent been much help but I'll always listen.
Take care mate.
<3

Popple · 22-03-2009, 10:50 AM

Im sorry you are struggling and I know its hard when you feel like you are not being listened to but everyone deserves to have someone listen. You do exist, you are here and you are alive. Things might be hard now but they don't have to stay like this forever.
Have you got any proffesional support? If not do you think you could try get some, you don't have to deal with this on your own and sometimes it helps just to have someone to listen and we are always here if you need to talk or rant.
Take care of yourself love
x

Katiee · 22-03-2009, 08:56 PM

Hun, please try and not cut. Find distractions, if possible. xo.

Popple · 23-03-2009, 10:20 AM

How are you feeling today love?
I hope your alright.
Take care
x

gotta-breathe · 24-03-2009, 02:15 AM

im alright today miss pixie.
not so good last night though. broken 3 times last week. which is not good. i realized today how screwed up my arm is. just one arm. all scarred up. theyre going to get really white in the summer when i tan wont they? im scared...and i hate them. but i love them...