Triggering (SI/Suicide) - I don't get it.

[kitty3721]

Most of the time I'm happy, and I would assume my friends would tell you that I am a happy person.

But sometimes I'm not, and I don't know why. It's not when anything imparticular happens, in fact it's pretty sporadic. But all these horrible thoughts come into my head and I start to cut again. I want these thoughts to go away but I can't make them. It just keeps getting worse and worse. And I know plenty of people will think "you're not alone".

But I feel it. All the time.

[KittenEyes]

Well, you really aren't alone, I know it doesn't necessarily help, but it's the truth. You sound like me, I get in these weird states when nothing at all happens, and I cut just because. It's strange, I don't really understand why it happens, but it does...

If you feel like you're upset or you get in a cutting mood, please come here and talk to us instead! I know it helps me a lot, there are countless times I would've cut if it hadn't have been for RYL.

xxxAudrey

[Katiee]

I know you feel alone, but you're not. *HUGS* I understand what you're saying though. Are you getting any professional help? xo.

[kitty3721]

Thanks guys :) it's nice to know there are others out there.

I used to get "professional help" but it wasn't much help to be honest. I've moved within the last few months so I don't even have a doctor anymore.

I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and A.D.D. which apparently don't make a good mix.

But thanks guys :)